Past Chapters: 01 | 02 | 03 | 04 | 05 | 06 | 07 | 08
Pairings: KyuWook, YeWook, KiSung (later on), etc. (other minor pairings).
Genre: Angst, Romance
Summary: Kyuhyun and Ryeowook were a happy and lovely couple until Ryeowook fell into a coma. He wakes up and doesn't remember a thing about Super Junior. Yesung has been known to have a crush on Ryeowook. He's overjoyed, yet broken inside to know Ryeowook has no more memories of them. He takes this time to go on ahead and convince Ryeowook that they were lovers. Problems arise in Super Junior thanks to Yesung's doings. Kyuhyun can only do so little to help Ryeowook try and remember, but he knows it's almost impossible. Ryeowook knows Yesung's his "boyfriend", but he doesn't understand why he doesn't feel any love growing towards the man even when he does so much for him. Will he ever regain his memories and realize that Kyuhyun's really his love?
Author's Note: AHH!!! My readers, I have news! You guys are allowed to kill me now for not having been updating for a week or two now? >.< I'm so sorry! I've been super busy and very tired! Dance and Volleyball practice sure takes up so much of my time! But tadah!!! Don't worry! I am still continuing! Never think that I've stopped this! Never ever! (: But whoo, I'm finally back with another chapter! Chapter nine! Woohoo! *cheer happily* It's very long? Nearly seven pages in word. xD So enjoy it and be happy, okay? Don't kill me! And I'm sorry if it takes awhile for me to update again cause school starts next week for me. T_________T
Kyuhyun was wandering around the hallways of the SM building with nothing to do, until Kibum spotted him. What’s he doing walking around? He secretly followed the magnae for awhile. After following the male for a few minutes he decided it was time to have a talk with him.
“Kyuhyun!” He called out to him.
Kyuhyun stopped when he heard his name being called. He turned around to look.
“Hyung?” Kyuhyun said in more of a question.
“What are you doing? Shouldn’t you be off doing something better than walking around?” Kibum asked.
Kyuhyun shook his head. “I’m just bored. Eunhyuk and Shindong are busy with Ryeowook.” He mentioned.
“Teaching him the dances?” Kibum let out a small laugh at his imagination of Ryeowook being clumsy while he danced.
“It’s not funny, hyung! Ryeowook dances just fine!” Kyuhyun pouted in protest at Kibum’s laughter.
“Sorry, Kyuhyun. Care to have a drink with me?” Kibum suggested.
“Sure, why not?” Kyuhyun agreed.
Kyuhyun and Kibum sat across from one another in the small coffee shop not far from their dormitory. Before going to the coffee shop, they went home to disguise themselves to keep from getting recognized by fans or paparazzi.
“Why’d you have to make me wear this wig and these ‘Harry Potter’ sunglasses?” Kibum groaned.
Kyuhyun laughed. “Hey, you were the one that was afraid of being caught.” He said quietly. Kibum glared at him. “Be glad I didn’t make you dress up in a girl wig and girl clothes.”
Kibum rolled his eyes and the waitress came to their table with their orders. She placed them in front of them neatly on the table.
“Please enjoy your refreshments and if there’s anything else you’ll like to order just call us over.” The young lady smiled before bowing and leaving to serve others.
“She’s cute,” Kyuhyun said, staring after her.
Kibum nodded in agreement. “She is, but too bad we’re gay.”
“Only you are,” Kyuhyun teased.
“Shut up. Don’t forget you made me put this on!” Kibum said angrily.
“Haha! Okay, so what do you want to talk about?” Kyuhyun said in a serious tone after his laugh.
“About Ryeowook and Yesung.” Kibum replied after taking a sip of his cappuccino.
Kyuhyun frowned. What was there to talk about? He knows Kibum likes Yesung hyung, but why does he want to talk about this from all the other things they could talk about? He sighed.
“What about them?” Kyuhyun had the guts to ask.
“Kyuhyun! You know how painful it is to watch them be together! You love him, don’t you? Don’t you remember what I told you? You have to fight back if you want him back!”
Kyuhyun looked at his hyung with sad eyes. You’re right, Kibum. But it’s hard when he acts like we’ve never known each other before.
“I know, hyung. I know. But it’s not that easy! I’ve tried and I still am giving shots at it. Every night, I talk to him. He has trouble sleeping at night without me, but he can’t remember anything that leads to his insomnia state!” Kyuhyun said drastically.
“Tell him then.” Kibum retorted.
“No!” Kyuhyun yelled, attracting some attention.
“Why not?” Kibum whispered, looking around at the people.
“Because it’d screw everything up, Kibum!” He whispered back.
“You’re right.” Kibum gave in. “Then what do we do? Kyuhyun you have to get him to remember you. If you don’t… then… then…”
“Then you’ll never get to be with Yesung?” Kyuhyun suggested.
“…Yes. You know how much I love him.”
“And you know how much he loves Ryeowook.”
Kibum nodded. “But... you love him too, a lot.” Tears brimming his eyes.
“I do, hyung. But I can’t do much with Yesung around and you know that? You see how much he glues himself to hyung.” Kyuhyun smiles sadly.
“But you can take him places and do things you did with him before. Yesung will have to let you or else Ryeowook will sense something is wrong between the both of you.” Kibum said softly.
“…” Kyuhyun only stared down at his cup of tea.
“Kyuhyun, you have to do something you guys did in the past. You can’t just keep telling him, you have to do it. Of course if you guys have had sexual intercourse, that’s a bit out of proportion,” Kibum chuckles at his last sentence.
“Hyung!~” Kyuhyun whines. “You know very well that we haven’t done such things! That’s just… disgusting! We were never ready to sleep with one another in that way!” He protested.
“Wow, I’d have Yesung in a heartbeat.” Kibum joked.
“Eww! I so did not need to know that.” Kyuhyun felt like puking.
Kibum giggled. “Anyways, do something with him, Kyuhyun. Take him somewhere and try triggering old memories. Doing that should help, Kyuhyun.” Kibum advised. “Promise me you’ll try,” he stuck a finger.
Kyuhyun sighed. “I promise.” And they both did a pinky swear.
Kyuhyun sat on his bed thinking of where he should take Ryeowook. Ryeowook was still at practice with Shindong and Eunhyuk. Maybe he should take him out to eat? He wondered if his hyung had eaten yet. He must be so tired and hungry. Kyuhyun frowned at the thought of Ryeowook starving and exhausted. Well if Ryeowook is exhausted he wasn’t sure if he wanted to take Ryeowook out anywhere. He’d rather have his hyung rest, but maybe taking him to his favorite restaurant would work. A small eat out with just the two of them.
Kyuhyun grinned to himself. Yes, that would do. He sat up and looked at the clock hanging on the wall across from him. It was now 5:00pm, he could go pick Ryeowook up and bring him back over here to the dorm, and get him showered and changed. It’d be just like the last time when he and Wook went together alone. Them sitting across from each other and talking about how hard the dances for ‘SORRY, SORRY’ and ‘It’s You’ were. This was the perfect time. Yes, he now had a plan.
Kyuhyun walked into the practice room. ‘It’s You’ was busting out of the stereo. Kyuhyun sat by where the three boys had put their things and watched as Eunhyuk and Shindong taught the eternal magnae. They were sweaty, especially Ryeowook. None of them noticed Kyuhyun had even slipped into the room. He couldn’t suppress a laugh when he saw Ryeowook trip Eunhyuk on accident though. The other three turned their heads to where the laugh was coming from and was surprised to see Kyuhyun on the other side of the room.
“Kyuhyun, hey!” Shindong grinned goofily.
Kyuhyun waved. “Hey hyungs!” He said in a fit of giggles.
“What brings you here?” Eunhyuk asked.
“I was just wondering if you guys were done because if you were I wanted to take Ryeowook out to get some food!” Kyuhyun beamed.
“What about me?” Shindong pouted, “I’m hungry too!”
“Shush,” Eunhyuk elbowed the other dancer in the stomach, “We have food at home!”
“But!” Shindong whined.
“No,” Eunhyuk turned Shindong away from Ryeowook, “it’s kind of like a date to resurface memories! Can’t you tell?!”
Shindong’s mouth formed an ‘o’ shape and he nodded. Ryeowook looked from Shindong and Eunhyuk to Kyuhyun. He felt suspicious of Shindong and Eunhyuk. What are they talking about? He couldn’t help but wonder why Kyuhyun was so happy. It was just dinner, so what’s so exciting about that? He guessed he’d just have to wait and see.
“So,” Kyuhyun raised an eyebrow, “Is he good to go?” The two dancers turned around and nodded with gigantic grins. Kyuhyun laughed. “Alright then, let’s get you home and dressed!”
He grabbed Ryeowook’s hand and pulled him out of the practice room. Ryeowook’s heartbeat increased rapidly at the touch of their hands. He wanted to pull his hand away, but for some reason, he kind of liked it.
“Where are you going?” Yesung asked, as he watched Ryeowook get dressed.
Ryeowook grinned, showing his excitement. He pulled his shirt over his head and took a seat next to Yesung on the bed.
“Kyuhyun’s taking me out to dinner!”
“Kyuhyun?” Yesung frowned.
Ryeowook caught it right away. He pouted and wrapped his arms around Yesung’s waist, and snuggled his head under Yesung’s chin comfortably.
“Yes, is something wrong with that?” Ryeowook said worriedly.
Yesung smiled a bit and shook his head. “No, nothing is wrong. Go and enjoy yourself, okay?” And make sure you don’t do anything too foolish. He wanted to say, but didn’t.
“Thanks,” he beamed before kissing Yesung on the cheek and running out of the room to meet up with Kyuhyun downstairs.
Yesung sighed and shook his head.
(You’ll notice a change in my tense here! I’m testing out if I write better in present tense!)
The waitress places their orders in front of them and Ryeowook grins happily at the sight of food because boy was he hungry. He looks up at Kyuhyun and sees he has a soft smile gracing his lips. He takes one more glance around the unfamiliar, yet almost familiar restaurant, and it sparks up something inside his mind. He’s hearing voices inside his head, but they aren’t clear enough for him to recognize. He can’t tell, but he’s just staring down at his food. Kyuhyun catches this. There’s a slight frown on Ryeowook’s face and he wonders if the boy is alright.
“Ryeowook… are you okay?” Kyuhyun asks with worry embedded into his voice.
His voice lures Ryeowook out of the flashback which was too blurry for him to actually remember. He shakes his head and right away the vision disappears from his mind. He takes awhile to adjust to what exactly just happened and what was happening now. He finally looks up at Kyuhyun and smiles.
“I’m okay. I just had a small vision,” he nods, “Have I been here before? This place, it was in my vision.”
“Yes, you’ve been here numerous times with us. This is one of your favorite restaurants nearby!” Kyuhyun says. It’s working! Kyuhyun exclaims in his mind.
“Oh really? Hmm, that’s probably why this place seems somewhat familiar to me!” Ryeowook exclaims with joy.
“Most likely, but will you just focus on eating now please? The food is getting cold, Ryeowook.” The magnae reminds.
“Oh yes!” Ryeowook automatically agrees.
And so they both begin eating the food laid out nicely in front of them. Sometime while they were eating, Kyuhyun decides to bring up the subject of Ryeowook’s dance lessons with Eunhyuk and Shindong to see if anything else would trigger.
“So, how did dancing go with Eunhyuk and Shindong?”
Ryeowook almost chokes on his water he just swallowed down. He takes on a couple of coughs and clears his throat before answering Kyuhyun.
“Don’t even ask! It was hard like heck! ‘SORRY, SORRY’ almost killed me!” Ryeowook says in disbelief. “I was not expecting the dance to be so hard! I knew it was going to be a challenge, but not like that,” his eyes slightly wide.
“Haha! It is really hard, isn’t it?”
“Mhm, was it hard for you, too?”
“You know, I’m not much of a great dancer too. You and I are both at the same level with dancing.” Kyuhyun laughs.
“Really…?” Ryeowook says with much disbelief.
“You haven’t even seen me dance! Just wait till you do, I’ll suck big time! Well, if I don’t know the routine, then yeah, I suck big time then.” Kyuhyun defends himself before Ryeowook could add more.
“Well, I have! Eeteuk has shown me many of our performances, and from what I see you dance better than I do!”
“Yeah right.” and Kyuhyun scoffs. “But don’t worry, ‘SORRY, SORRY’ is really an easy dance once you know it.”
“Yes, most likely because you know it.” Ryeowook giggles.
“I guess, but anyway how was ‘It’s You’?” Kyuhyun asks with much curiosity.
“Ugh! It was a little easier than ‘SORRY, SORRY’, but it was still really hard!” Ryeowook whines with a big, cute pout.
“You’ll get better, don’t worry!” Kyuhyun assures, before he continues to pick at his food.
“Yeah…” Ryeowook smiles.
Kibum wonders if he should knock on Yesung’s door and go in to have a talk with him. He brings up his hand and is about to knock, when he decides not to. He turns around to walk back to his shared bedroom, but then Yesung’s door opens without him realizing it.
“Kibum?” Yesung calls his name out in uncertainty. “Did you need something?”
Kibum turns around, a bit flustered now. He manages a shaky smile and lets out a nervous laugh. He’s not sure of what to say now, because of the awkward situation they were in now.
“Umm… I just… wanted to talk to you, hyung.” Kibum said in a soft voice.
“Oh… come in?” Yesung smiles a little.
Things between him and Yesung are still a bit weird, but he was going to try and make things right tonight. Try to… at least.
“Sure?” Kibum replies.
Yesung steps back into his room and gives space for Kibum to come in. Kibum heads to sit on Yesung’s bed and once his hyung closes the door; he comes and sits beside him.
“So… what do you want to talk about?” Yesung asks a bit hesitantly.
Kibum stays quiet for a few seconds as he gathers what to say in his mind. Yesung waits patiently.
“I just... when I found out… I’m–”
“It’s okay Kibum. You don’t need to be sorry, it’s what I–”
“I’m not sorry about the things I said to you that day, or how I reacted. I wasn’t here to apologize, hyung.” Kibum retorts a bit too harshly. Crap, did I really just say I wasn’t sorry?
Yesung looks a bit taken back, but he hides it the best he can. This is what was to be expected, right? Yesung doesn’t say anything for awhile and only stares down at his hands, feeling only a little guilty. I’m only making things worse, but I’m really not sorry. Kibum realizes, and he takes this as his cue to continue.
“I know I probably had hurt you with those words and stuff, but I’m not sorry hyung. I thought I came here to apologize, and I was going to! I was wishing to make things all better with you and I!” Kibum says out loud. Tears beginning to brim in his eyes, “I was expecting that after this, I could probably accept you and Ryewoook.” He lies.
He knows he could never accept it in his heart, never. Even if he wanted to, it was almost impossible. He wants to help Ryeowook remember. He wants to help Kyuhyun regain his happiness. He wanted to be happy himself.
“But… but I don’t think I ever can. No matter how much I want to apologize, it hurts too much for me and I hate that! Hyung I hate it! Why did you have to go and do something so stupid?! Do something that could make the whole world hate you?!” Kibum cries, his tears flowing down his cheeks.
Yesung finally looks up at him. He’s frowning and he’s feeling guiltier. He wants to pull the young boy to him and hug him, and apologize, but at the same time he doesn’t know what to do.
“K-Kibum…” Yesung murmurs.
“Don’t speak.” Kibum says in a helpless plea. “I’m going to say this now and only now, while I have the courage to, so you better listen very carefully to me.” He says with much seriousness.
Yesung nods, while whispering a quiet “okay”.
“I love you. I love you more than anything in the world, hyung. I don’t know why, but I just do. Maybe it’s a natural thing in love, but I really don’t know. It hurts knowing that you took the shortcut to have Ryeowook be yours when he already had Kyuhyun.”
Kibum looks away from him and fights against his tears. Yesung is confused.
“Kibum…?” Yesung starts. “I’m with Ryeo–”
“I hate you, Yesung! I hate you so much, but why do I love you?! You’ve done this and I still want to be with you! But it’ll never work…” Kibum mutters his last sentence weakly. “It never will, since you’ve gotten Ryeowook in your arms now. I’m hoping you’ll be happy with him while the time you have with him.” Kibum smiles a bitter one, before getting up and running out of the room.
Yesung stays sitting on his bed in pure shock. He was unsure of what to think. Kibum… in love with… me?
okay~ soooo hehehehe. kibummie confessed! isn't that awesome? but it happened so dramatically, didn't it? D: oh well, at least you got some yebum action, yes? a few of you guys have been waiting for yebum to happen, so here they are! (: and omg, wook remembers something~ teehee! awesome isn't it? xD comments<3 i'll try to update as soon as i can. oh, and would you guys like it better if i changed my writing to present tense? i'm so tired... @________@