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[Fanfic] Insomnia; Chapter 16

Title: Insomnia
Chapter: 16/16
Past Chapters: 01|02|03|04|05|06|07|08|09|10|11|12|13|14|15
Pairings: KyuWook, YeWook, KiSung (later on), etc. (other minor pairings).
Rating: PG-13
Genre: Angst, Romance
Summary: Kyuhyun and Ryeowook were a happy and lovely couple until Ryeowook fell into a coma. He wakes up and doesn't remember a thing about Super Junior. Yesung has been known to have a crush on Ryeowook. He's overjoyed, yet broken inside to know Ryeowook has no more memories of them. He takes this time to go on ahead and convince Ryeowook that they were lovers. Problems arise in Super Junior thanks to Yesung's doings. Kyuhyun can only do so little to help Ryeowook try and remember, but he knows it's almost impossible. Ryeowook knows Yesung's his "boyfriend", but he doesn't understand why he doesn't feel any love growing towards the man even when he does so much for him. Will he ever regain his memories and realize that Kyuhyun's really his love?
Author's Note: Okay guys! This is it! This is the end! The last chapter! I'm so happy I got it typed up before Christmas! This is my present to you all! Merry Christmas~~~ But anyways~ Yes, I'm serious this is the end of the series, unless I get enough people wanting an epilogue, which I probably will write! So this may not be the total end, but it is the main ending. Okay, I wish you guys the best holidays. Now go read! (:

That night Ryeowook found it hard to sleep. He tossed and turned but couldn’t find a comfortable position. Why can’t I ever fall asleep in this room, on this bed?! Why is it so easy to fall asleep in Kyuhyun’s room though? After an hour of just effortless tosses and turns he finally gets out of bed. He walks over to Yesung and slips in under the blanket, right next to his boyfriend. Yesung wakes up from the sudden dip in his bed. He groans and turns around, and finds Ryeowook lying beside him.

“Ryeowook…?” He calls out.

Ryeowook wraps his arms around Yesung’s waist and cuddles into him, just answering with a small “hmm”.

“You okay?” Yesung asks worriedly.

“Just finding it hard to fall asleep,” he mumbles tiredly.

Yesung stares down at his boyfriend awhile longer before he wraps his warm arms tightly around Ryeowook.



Ryeowook nods. Yesung smiles and just continues to hold Ryeowook. Before long the two of them were in their dreamlands.


Morning comes and everyone, but Ryeowook wakes up early to say their farewells to Kyuhyun before he officially goes on leave.


Kyuhyun rushes to finish the last of his packing.

“Kyuhyun, you’re really serious about this aren’t you?”

Kyuhyun turns around and isn’t surprised to see Kibum standing in the doorway with his arms crossed. He doesn’t care to answer his hyung though.

“I won’t stop you even if I want to, you know.” Kibum says. “I just wish you didn’t decide to take this route.”

Kyuhyun keeps his focus on packing.

“But since you are going to the U.S., tell my parents I said ‘hello’.”

Kibum turns to leave the room.

“Wait…” Kyuhyun stops him.

The older of the two turns his head around to look at the magnae.

“Kibum even after I leave… promise me you’ll take care of Ryeowook. Promise me you’ll make sure Yesung takes good care of Ryeowook. Promise me no matter what you won’t try anything foolish to break them apart.”

Kibum stares at his dongsaeng for awhile before he nods.

“I… I promise.” Kibum swears.

And Kyuhyun sighs.

“Thank you, Kibum hyung.”

Kibum smiles and stalks off.


Kyuhyun quietly goes into Yesung and Ryeowook’s room. He places an envelope onto the nightstand beside Ryeowook. Kyuhyun stares down at his beloved and fights hard not to cry. He bends down slowly and stares at the peaceful looking boy. The magnae smiles sadly at him, even though his hyung can’t see it. He brings a hand up to caress Ryeowook’s defined cheek.

“Hyung… Wookie… I’m leaving now. Take good care of yourself while I’m away. Farewell, my love.” Kyuhyun whispers sadly.


Kyuhyun is now standing in front of 11 of the other 12 members of Super Junior in the lobby of their dormitory building.

“Well,” he breathes, “I will be off now you guys,” he smiles.

“…You’re really going?” Donghae asks.

Kyuhyun nods.

“I wasn’t expecting you to really go… but I guess you really are now.” Hankyung adds.

Kyuhyun pats his hyung on the shoulder and smiles.

“Don’t worry too much, hyung. I’ll be fine. The only worry is that I’ll miss your Beijing Fried Rice.” And Ryeowook’s dishes, and Eeteuk hyung’s ramen noodles.

Hankyung and a couple others laugh.

“Are you sure you’re really up to this?” Eeteuk asks for reassurance.

Kyuhyun doesn’t waste time to answer.

“Yes, leader-sshi. I am sure this is the right thing to do.” Kyuhyun grins.

Eeteuk can only smile back sadly.

“Kyuhyun, it’s time to head to the airport,” their manager informs.

“Yes, Manager Kim!” Kyuhyun says delighted.

He turns to look at his fellow band members and sighs.

“I’ll miss you guys.” Kyuhyun pouts.

And soon everyone is coming up giving him hugs.

“Bring me back a lot of souvenirs!” Shindong says with much seriousness.

“Hey, you better bring back a picture of the Pussy Cat Dolls with their signatures!” Eunhyuk says, showing his gummy smile, only to get hit on the head by a jealous Donghae.

“Kyuhyun-ah, take lots and lots of pictures for me!” Donghae beams through teary eyes.

“I’ll miss you, Kyuhyun~” Sungmin smiles.

“Once you come back, I want to know how their Chinese Fried Rice tastes like over there!” Hankyung exclaims.

“Yah Kyuhyun! You better go to church on Sundays over there!” Siwon warns.

“If you’re having a hard time understanding English, give me a call.” Kibum laughs.

“You better not catch yourself a man that is prettier than I, Kyuhyun! I’m still mad at you!” Heechul puffs.

Kyuhyun laughs.

“Take care, man.” Kangin grins.

“Have a safe flight and take care of yourself alright? If you’re feeling lonely, don’t hesitate to call us.” Eeteuk says way too motherly for his nature.

They’re all so nice to me still. Even after they know I’m leaving, they still care.

“Alright, alright! I’ll try to remember all of these things!” Kyuhyun giggles. “I’ll call you guys later if I forget some of your requests!”

“You better!” A couple of them yelled.

“Bye you guys.” Kyuhyun smiles and tries his best not to lose ground now.

“Bye, buddy!” They all reply.

As Kyuhyun turns to leave though, he spots Yesung standing not far from them. I should say bye to him.. He walks over to Yesung and smiles before giving his member a hug.

“Take care of Ryeowook for me, hyung. Don’t let him know I’m gone until my flight leaves.” Kyuhyun says.

Yesung wants to say something back, but before he even can Kyuhyun has already moved away and headed towards the exit.


Once Kyuhyun is outside, he stops to turn around and look at their dormitory once more. He sighs sadly, but still keeps a smile on his face. Bye you guys… Good bye Ryeowook… And he gets into the taxi heading to the airport.


When Ryeowook wakes up, everyone is already back doing their own things. He’s surprised to see Yesung has woken up before him. He heads to the bathroom to clean up before going into the other room dressed. He notices that Kyuhyun isn’t there with everyone else, but doesn’t take much thought to it. Maybe he’s still asleep. He takes a seat beside Yesung on the couch and snuggles up warmly beside him as they watch Eunhyuk and Donghae battle.

“You’re finally awake.” Yesung smiles as he brushes a few strands of hair away from Ryeowook’s face.

“Why is everyone up so early today?” Ryeowook asks.

“Oh it’s nothing,” Yesung lies, “Probably just one of those days everyone wakes up early coincidently.”

“Oh…” Ryeowook ends up with a cute pout on his face.

Yesung chuckles and pokes Ryeowook on the cheek playfully. He flinches from the touch and glares at Yesung.

“Where’s Kyuhyun anyway?” Ryeowook finally asks.

Yesung’s mood seems to go down and his smile disappears. And those who heard froze. How were they supposed to tell him Kyuhyun left this morning? They can’t say “Oh you didn’t know? He left this morning to go to America.”

“What? Did I say something wrong?”

Eeteuk quickly comes into the room from the kitchen and bends down in front of Ryeowook. Yesung keeps his eyes shut, not wanting to see how Ryeowook will react.

“Ryeowook, please don’t think much about this after I tell you okay?” Eeteuk says slowly.

Ryeowook looks at everyone around the room, his eyes filled with confusion, before trailing back to their leader.

“Kyuhyun… he left. He’s decided to go on temporary leave in America, but everything’s going to be alright. He’s only going for five months. Kyuhyun will be back very soon.” Eeteuk explains.

And Ryeowook doesn’t know what to even say. How come no one told me about this? How come he didn’t tell me he was leaving? He didn’t understand why his heart seems to be hurting right now after receiving the news.


“Ryeowook, Kyuhyun left this morning. He didn’t want you to know, so he didn’t tell you.”

“Why not? Does he hate me?”

Eeteuk shook his head ‘no’ and tried his best not to cry because this was painful.

“Oh no, no he doesn’t hate you at all. He actually likes you a lot, you’re his best friend, remember?” Eeteuk says forcing himself to smile.

“If I was, he would’ve told me! He wouldn’t have left without telling me,” he screamed, “I… I didn’t even get to tell him ‘good bye’.”

Ryeowook wasn’t even sure why he was yelling now.

Yesung gripped Ryeowook tighter, but Ryeowook pushed his arms away.

“Ryeowook…” Eeteuk mumbles the eternal magnae’s name.

“I… I want to be alone right now.”

And so Ryeowook gets up and speed walks to his and Yesung’s bedroom trying to keep his tears in.


He seats himself down on Yesung’s bed and curls into a tight ball.

“…Why? Why didn’t you tell me you were leaving?” He whimpers sadly to no one.

He turns his head to the side and spots an envelope on Yesung’s nightstand. It had ‘To: Ryeowook’ written on the front. He wipes his unshed tears away and reaches for the envelope. He opens it and reads the letter inside.

Hey Wookie hyung! You must be wondering who this letter is from right? Well it’s me, Kyuhyun! I’m sorry for not telling you I was leaving today. I found it too painful to tell you.

Ryeowook could spot tear stains on the letter, the ink smeared on some parts.

I don’t think you’ll ever remember what we used to have back then, but it’s alright. I waited three months for you, but it seems like Yesung has been doing well giving you all the love you need. I still remember the time when you and I first encountered each other; the day I had been put into Super Junior as the youngest and thirteenth member. Our friendship grew and grew until we were glued to each other like twins. I remember when I first realized I fell in love with you. It was the night we had won our first award during the U promotions. Haha, I don’t even know why I’m telling you this stuff, it’s not like you’ll remember anyways. I don’t think you even knew about me liking you. Did you? But you have Yesung now, hyung. You are happy. That’s all I could ever ask for. I’ll be back in five months Wookie! Until then take care of yourself for me. When I come back and find out Yesung’s been treating you unfairly I’ll kill him for you. Bye, hyung, my first true love.

P.S. by the time you’ve finished reading this, I would have already gone off to my destination.

Cho Kyuhyun.

Ryeowook was confused. First love? What? And soon memories flew back into his mind. The day Kyuhyun had asked him to be his boyfriend, their first date, their first kiss, their first I love you’s, and so much more. His head hurt painfully. Everything came back to him at once. He couldn’t stop it even if he wanted to. He moved off the bed to sit on the ground, trying to stop his memories from coming.

Yesung comes into the room and sees Ryeowook on the floor crying and runs over to him.

“Ryeowook!” He panics. “Are you alright?! What’s wrong?!”

He’s surprised when Ryeowook pushes him away roughly.

“Don’t touch me! Get away from me,” the young boy cries. “…Kyuhyun.”

Yesung’s eyes enlarge and he can only stare at Ryeowook. He looks up at Yesung with teary eyes.

“You lied to me! Yesung you lied! You told me you were my boyfriend! Why’d you have to lie?! Why did you make me leave Kyuhyun?!” Ryeowook screamed painfully.

Yesung can’t answer him at the moment.

“I’m going to find him,” Ryeowook whimpers, “I’m going to go find Kyuhyun!”

The magnae gets up and heads towards the door, but Yesung grabs his hand.

“Don’t go… please don’t go.” Yesung plead.

Ryeowook whimpers and shakes his hand away from Yesung’s grip.

“I hate you…”

Those were his last words before he left.


Kibum was about to come in to check on Ryeowook, until the boy came out running pass him.

“Yah, Ryeowook!” Kibum yells after the running boy.

He was ready to go after Ryeowook, until he notices Yesung on the ground crying.

“…Yesung?” Kibum calls unsure of what just happened.

“He hates me now.” Yesung mumbles.

And Kibum kneels down and holds him in his arms as he cries.


Ryeowook runs into the airport quickly, almost tripping on his own feet due to his intense speed. He’s having a hard time breathing, but he couldn’t care less right now. He looks around desperately to see if he can spot any familiar faces or body figures. He spots a man, and his only thought he has is: Kyuhyun! He runs over to the man he believes to be Kyuhyun. He reaches out for the man’s arm and turns him around.

“Kyuhyun!” Ryeowook breathes.

The man turns around, but the face is not Kyuhyun. This man is not his Kyuhyun.

“Who are you?” The man asks, eyeing Ryeowook as if he was out of his mind.

Ryeowook lets go of the man’s arm and bows frantically.

“I’m s-sorry.” He stutters a quick apology before running off to continue his search.


Kyuhyun’s standing in the long line of people, waiting to get his plane ticket check so he could head on to his plane ride. He checks his hand watch and notice it was only five more minutes before his plane is set to leave and he will be off to the other side of the world. He will be away from his family, his band members, and… Ryeowook. But it is better this way, right? It will help him get rid of all the pain, and who knows, he may find a new love possibly.

“Next person!” one of the workers yells.

Kyuhyun looks up from his watch and walks forward. It was soon to be his turn.


Ryeowook runs to one of the help centers and ask where the entrance to Kyuhyun’s flight is. They give him directions, and without any thanks he dashes off in the direction in which they pointed. He prays that Kyuhyun is not on the flight yet. He hopes that Kyuhyun was still waiting in line. He wishes that all of this was a dream.

“Kyuhyun… please wait for me. Please don’t leave me.” Ryeowook whispers to himself as he runs.

He reaches the gate they had told him is the entrance and Ryeowook begins searching frantically for Kyuhyun. There were still many people, so it made it hard to see. When he can’t identify the magnae, tears begin to form and his heart begins to pound painfully. Is he too late? Did he come too late? He shakes his head, not believing he lost his chance. No… no! He can’t be gone! He has to still be here!

He looks more carefully this time. His eyes travel from one person to the next, until it reaches the person first in line, whom is getting their ticket and passport checked out. His body becomes rigid.


“Next person, please come forward!”

Kyuhyun hands his passport and ticket to the ticket man. He waits patiently as they go through his passport and check his identity. He feels nervous suddenly. Am I doing the right thing? Is leaving the correct thing to do?

“You’re good to go.” The man nods and hand Kyuhyun’s things back to him.

“Thanks,” Kyuhyun bows politely before making his way pass the metal gates, and pulling his suitcase along with him.


Ryeowook feels like his throat is dry and he cannot speak. Kyuhyun is only a few meters away from him. He needs to speak or else Kyuhyun will be gone in only a matter of a few more seconds. If the man who he loves disappears now, he may never come back. Ryeowook looks up and notices Kyuhyun is heading towards the glass doors. He panics.

“Kyuhyun!” He calls out as loud as he can, but not enough to catch attention.

But when he calls for the other male, Kyuhyun had already gone through the sliding doors. He’s gone. Kyuhyun’s gone forever. He left me… And Ryeowook drops to the ground to cry.


Kyuhyun walks through the glass doors. He hears someone call out to him, the voice seeming utterly familiar. Can it be? He makes a move to turn around and look, but the doors close right then, blocking all of his sight. But even though it closed, he had caught a small glimpse of a man standing not far away.



Ryeowook’s wet tears fall down from his face onto his hands and the marble floor. He wants to grip the ground, but he can’t. His nails scratch into the ground painfully as he let out numerous sobs.

“Come back… Please come back, Kyuhyun… Don’t go…” He cries softly into the thin air. “I remember now, Hyunnie. I remember… Why’d you go?”

Someone bends down on one knee in front of him, and he looks up with his tear-filled eyes.


Kyuhyun asks the workers to let him back into the airport. He tells them he has changed his mind about leaving and doesn’t want to get on the plane. They tell him they can’t do anything about it, but since he’s a famous person they can’t refuse, so they give in and let him go. Kyuhyun comes out of the back exit only for workers, and sees Ryeowook on the ground crying. He smiles even though his love is crying. He knows he deserves to feel sad, but he instead he feels happy. Ryeowook came to find him. Ryeowook is crying for him to come back. Ryeowook said he remembers.

He walks over to his hyung and kneels down in front of him. When he sees those tear-filled eyes though, he feels guilty for making him cry like this, in such a public place too.


All Ryeowook could think of is: Kyuhyun? He instantly moves forward and wraps his arms tightly around Kyuhyun’s waist, scared that if he let go Kyuhyun will get up and leave him. He begins to sob again.

“Don’t go, please don’t go! You can’t leave me, Hyunnie! Not here, not now! I remember everything, Kyuhyun! I really do, and I’m sorry! I’m so sorry for hurting you! Please don’t leave…” He cries frantically, whispering his last sentence.

Kyuhyun smiles some more. Ryeowook looked really vulnerable, but he finds it insanely adorable. His boyfriend is afraid of him leaving. What isn’t cute about that? He wraps his arms around Ryeowook, and place the side of his face on top of Ryeowook’s head.

“It’s okay, Ryeowook. I’m not going anywhere, at least not anymore.” Kyuhyun whispers soothingly, his fingers going through his boyfriend’s silky hair.

Kyuhyun bends his head a bit to place a loving kiss in Ryeowook’s hair. Ryeowook’s hold tightens.

“You promise?” Ryeowook spoke it so quiet it was almost hard to hear.

“I promise.” Kyuhyun promises with a small nod.

He moves in and tips Ryeowook’s chin up a little, allowing their lips touch.

“I love you,” he whispers.


omgee, i'm finally done with this fic! 8D i would like to thank all of my readers for being so patient with me and my updates. i love you guys A LOT, and hope you all will read my future stories. thanks for all of your support! and one more thanks! thanks to you guys, i was able to finish my first fic ever! 8D i love you guys<3

remember, if i get enough people wanting an epilogue for this fic, an epilogue will come, so this might not be the total end of the fic. (: and oh yea, the voting of the pairing for my next fiction is still going! so far kiwook (kibumxryeowook) is winning! go and vote if you haven't yet!

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[Fanfic] Insomnia; Chapter 15

Title: Insomnia
Chapter: 15/16
Past Chapters: 01|02|03|04|05|06|07|08|09|10|11|12|13|14
Pairings: KyuWook, YeWook, KiSung (later on), etc. (other minor pairings).
Rating: PG-13
Genre: Angst, Romance
Summary: Kyuhyun and Ryeowook were a happy and lovely couple until Ryeowook fell into a coma. He wakes up and doesn't remember a thing about Super Junior. Yesung has been known to have a crush on Ryeowook. He's overjoyed, yet broken inside to know Ryeowook has no more memories of them. He takes this time to go on ahead and convince Ryeowook that they were lovers. Problems arise in Super Junior thanks to Yesung's doings. Kyuhyun can only do so little to help Ryeowook try and remember, but he knows it's almost impossible. Ryeowook knows Yesung's his "boyfriend", but he doesn't understand why he doesn't feel any love growing towards the man even when he does so much for him. Will he ever regain his memories and realize that Kyuhyun's really his love?
Author's Note: Hey guys, I'm back with another update! The chapter's short, but I hope you guys still like it! And can you believe it?! The next chapter will most likely be the finale! But who knows? I could end up writing it into two parts, lol, but we'll see. And by the way, I have a poll for you guys to take for my next fic, so look for it at the bottom of this chapter! Now go and enjoy~

Ryeowook wakes up and finds that Kyuhyun is gone. He yawns loudly, and stretches his arms out. He checks the time and realizes he’s slept basically the whole day. When he turns to the side to turn off the lamp on the nightstand he catches sight of a note addressed to him. Curious, he grabs the note and reads what it says:

Hey Ryeowook, come meet me up at the roof as soon as you get up.

This makes Ryeowook even more curious and he wonders what the magnae could want with him. He gets out of bed and goes to the washroom.


Yesung sees Ryeowook come out of the bathroom and rushes over to him.

“You’re awake.” Yesung smiles at him.

Ryeowook could only smile back.

“I’ve been asleep all day, sorry. I guess taking care of Kyuhyun worn me out.” Ryeowook apologizes.

“It’s okay,” Yesung shakes his head, “You must be very tired.”

“I’m okay now actually.” Ryeowook grins.

“That’s good.” Yesung replies and pulls Ryeowook into a loving embrace. “Do you want to go out to dinner right now? I want to take you somewhere nice to eat, since today is a day off and I want to do something really romantic for you.”

Ryeowook cuddles more into Yesung’s touch, and sighs from the warmth and comfort.

“Mm, I’d love to, but I can’t right now.” Ryeowook pulls away a little.

“Why not?”

“Kyuhyun wants me to meet him up on the roof.” Ryeowook explains.

Yesung feels like his plans had been crushed, but either way, he couldn’t do anything about it, so he smiles. He smiles for the one and only man he’ll always love deeply inside.

“Sorry, Sungie.” Ryeowook winces.

“No, it’s okay,” he shakes his head, “I understand. We can always go another time.”

And he places a soft kiss on Ryeowook’s forehead before releasing him and urging him to go meet Kyuhyun because… because that’s all he thinks he can do for Ryeowook right now if Kyuhyun’s really leaving.


Kyuhyun’s leaning on the brick fence of the balcony, just staring up into the late evening sky. He’s thinking, wondering, about how long it’s been since he’s been with Super Junior. He’s reminiscing all the times he’s spent with Ryeowook and everything that has happened for the past months. But he jerks out of his memories when he hears the rooftop door creak open. He turns around and finds a smiling Ryeowook standing in the doorway, breathless.

“Ryeowook, you came…” Kyuhyun says in awe.

Ryeowook walks further onto the roof and closes the door behind him.

“Of course, I wasn’t going to leave you up here all evening!” Ryeowook giggles.

Kyuhyun laughs. He brings a hand up and wavers for his hyung to come over to where he was. Ryeowook hurries over and giggles some more. Kyuhyun feels happy because he’s being able to hear his hyung’s laugh once more before he leaves. He’s happy because he gets to see his Wookie smile before his dreadful departure from him.

“The evening sky is beautiful today!” Ryeowook beams as he points towards the direction of the setting sun, illuminating a bright red glow.

Kyuhyun just stares at his hyung, trying to make sure he never forgets this man who he loves so much, but is willing to move forth and forget the memories they share of the past. And soon, a lone tear slips down his cheek. Ryeowook catches it from his side view, and turns to his dongsaeng, panic arising.

“Kyuhyun, are you okay?” Ryeowook asks.

Kyuhyun nods and wipes his tear.

“”The sky is just very g-gorgeous tonight!” Kyuhyun laughs. “So gorgeous it pains me.”

Ryeowook seems uncertain of Kyuhyun’s reply, but smiles nonetheless.

“Very funny, Kyuhyun,” Ryeowook says. “Now, can you tell me why you wanted me up here?”

Kyuhyun nods and stares out to the open.

“I have something I want to ask you.”

“What is it?”

It takes awhile for Kyuhyun ask his question.

“Hyung… Are… Are you happy?” Kyuhyun finally speaks.

Ryeowook turns his head to look at the magnae, confused with his question. He isn’t sure why Kyuhyun is asking him such a thing. Of course he is happy! He has Yesung and everyone else in the band who loves him so much. …But was he, really?

“Of course!” Ryeowook beams. “Why wouldn’t I be? I have Yesung, you and everyone else who loves me!”

Kyuhyun laughs a bit and feels stupid for even asking him.

“Right, haha.”

His heart feels nothing but pain. Ryeowook probably would never remember him. The one boy, who he loves, is no longer coming back to him. And what difference did it make? He was leaving tomorrow anyways. It’s not like magic can happen and make Ryeowook remember who they really were by tomorrow morning.

“Aiyoo~ it’s getting dark out.” Ryeowook half yawns, half giggles.

Kyuhyun couldn’t help but smile.

“Kyuhyun do–”

He grabbed the eternal magnae’s hand and tugged him towards him. Ryeowook’s body stiffened at the feel of Kyuhyun’s arms wrapped around his body. He wonders what got into the boy. Why is he acting so strange?

“Uh… K-Kyuhyun-ah…” Ryeowook mutters, trying to push himself away.

Kyuhyun didn’t allow him to, and only tightened his hold. He didn’t want this moment to end yet.

“Don’t, hyung, don’t… just let me hold you please?” He whispers weakly, trying his best to keep his tears in.

That made Ryeowook became more even flustered.


“Shh… don’t say anything.” Kyuhyun begged.

Ryeowook’s eyes softened at his tone.


Ryeowook shut his eyes close, letting him relax in the arms of his unknown lover. Kyuhyun smiles sadly. Just for now, let me pretend we are still together…

dumdumdum!!!! kekeke. is kyuhyun really really gonna leave? i'm sorry, but i can't tell you guys that! xD i would love to, but nah. save it for the next chapter which i will try to hurry up and write soon! but for now, please take some time to vote for the next pairing you would like me to write for my next fic, which will be a fantasy type story! exciting right? i love guys!

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[Fanfic] Insomnia; Chapter 14

Title: Insomnia
Chapter: 14/??
Past Chapters: 01|02|03|04|05|06|07|08|09|10|11|12|13
Pairings: KyuWook, YeWook, KiSung (later on), etc. (other minor pairings).
Rating: PG-13
Genre: Angst, Romance
Summary: Kyuhyun and Ryeowook were a happy and lovely couple until Ryeowook fell into a coma. He wakes up and doesn't remember a thing about Super Junior. Yesung has been known to have a crush on Ryeowook. He's overjoyed, yet broken inside to know Ryeowook has no more memories of them. He takes this time to go on ahead and convince Ryeowook that they were lovers. Problems arise in Super Junior thanks to Yesung's doings. Kyuhyun can only do so little to help Ryeowook try and remember, but he knows it's almost impossible. Ryeowook knows Yesung's his "boyfriend", but he doesn't understand why he doesn't feel any love growing towards the man even when he does so much for him. Will he ever regain his memories and realize that Kyuhyun's really his love?
Author's Note: AH!!! My precious readers! You all may kill me for not updating for a month now! I'm so sorry!!! I know I said I'd be able to update more often after the 15th of October, but things didn't go as plan! I've been really busy with school work so I haven't been able to do much with this story! But do not fear! I am not giving up on this fic! Therefore I am here with another update after a long hiatus? lol. I hope you guys do enjoy this chapter cause something exciting does happen! Kekeke~ And as a warning though, the fic is coming to an end very soon. There are at least two more chapters before the ending is here, so be aware. Now go and read aways~ I've missed your comments<3 (:

Kyuhyun wakes up and finds Ryeowook sleeping next to him. He smiles at the cute sight. He feels much better now that his headache isn’t pounding as strong anymore. But seeing Ryeowook laying next to him like this just makes it go all away and he thinks it’s time he really made a decision on what he wants to do with his life. If Ryeowook wasn’t going to remember, he didn’t want to spend the rest of his life waiting. It would be unfair to the rest of him to do so. He caresses Ryeowook’s cheek softly.

It’s been almost three months. I think it’s about time for me to let go. You seem happy with Yesung hyung anyways.

He carefully gets up from bed and goes off to do whatever was on his mind.


“Doctor, are you sure you can’t do anything about it?”

Kyuhyun stares at Ryeowook’s doctor with pleading eyes, trying to get the doctor to tell him something, anything that would help him get Ryeowook to remember. The doctor only sighed and shook his head.

“I’m sorry, but I think the chances of him remembering are too slim now. There’s no other advice I can give you. Cases like these sometimes are never solved, therefore their memories that were lost, were never regained. I don’t think there’s anything that will help it now. I’m terribly sorry,” the doctor says with sadness embedded all over his face.

“I… I see,” Kyuhyun nods, trying to hold back his tears as best as he could. “Thank you.”

Kyuhyun gets up and is about to go out the doctor’s office, but the older man’s voice stops him.

“Kyuhyun-sshi, a miracle can happen though. It’s a rare thing, but some of my patients back then had regained their memories a year after their incident. It could happen with Ryeowook, but like I said, it’s a rare thing.”

Kyuhyun nods a little and leaves the office.


“Sure, Kyuhyun. If that’s what you really feel like doing, then I can look into it and understand.”

Kyuhyun bows down to his manager in show of his gratitude.

“Thank you, Manager Kim. Thank so much.”


He gets back to the dorms and realizes that not yet everyone is awake. He finds Eeteuk in the kitchen busy cooking ramen noodles.

“Hyung?” Kyuhyun calls out.

Eeteuk stops and turns to look at the owner of the voice. The leader is a little surprised to see the magnae out of bed so early when he was sick.

“Oh, Kyuhyun-ah! Are you feeling better now?” Eeteuk asks with a soft smile.

“Mm,” he nods a little.

“The noodles are almost done so it’ll just be awhile longer,” the leader chuckled as he returned his focus to stirring the noodles in the pot. “Ah, why are you up so early anyways? It’s only seven in the morning. You shou–”

“Actually hyung, I have something I want to talk about with you and the others, but not with Ryeowook.” Kyuhyun informed.

Eeteuk eyed his dongsaeng with worry. What could he possibly want to tell us?


All but Ryeowook were awoken from their morning slumber and gathered into their small living room. Heechul and Kangin were the two who had to be forced out of bed. Eeteuk of course had fun using his water screen tactic on the both of them. The members were curious as to what Kyuhyun had to say because Heechul swore that if it was not important he would kill all of them for messing up his morning with an early wake up call and water that was from Eeteuk’s mouth.

“Okay everyone, settle down,” the oldest of the twelve speaks. “Ryeowook is still sleeping, so we have to be quiet. We can’t risk him waking up on us now.”

Everyone in the room closed their mouths right away.

“Now Kyuhyun, you may tell us your news.” Eeteuk says with a grin.

Kyuhyun stares down at his hands on his lap. He’s not sure how to tell them. Will they accept this? Maybe they’ll see me as a traitor and hate me. No, I have to do this.

“I-I… I’m,” he gulped, “I’m going on temporary leave for five months.”

Kyuhyun makes himself look up and he catches the stares he’s getting from the members. The room suddenly feels as if it had just become even quieter than it already was. It also began to feel smaller to Kyuhyun. He wants someone to say something, anything – just something to break this horrible, thick, excruciating silence that had grown. He didn’t want this to happen. But someone finally decides to speak upon this news.

“You can’t do that.” Heechul disagrees. “Do you know how fucking long that is? That’s like half a years worth away!”

Siwon and Hankyung, who have the Cinderella man sandwiched between them on the other couch, rubbed his back soothingly. Kyuhyun doesn’t say anything. He’s too scared to.

“Are you… Are you giving up on Ryeowook?” Kibum asks with damp eyes. “Kyuhyun, did you forget about all the things you and I talked about?”

Kyuhyun stares at Kibum and shakes his head furiously.

“No, hyung! I haven’t! It’s just–”

“Kyuhyun, you can’t just leave like this. It’ll cause a ruckus with the media.” Shindong warns, but out of worry.

“I’ve already spoken with Manager Kim about it and he has it covered.” Kyuhyun explains.

“Still, you can’t just quit on us for five months!” Heechul cries. “I know you’re feeling pain, but we all are too! You’re not the only one who wants to escape, Kyuhyun!”

Donghae doesn’t want to say anything because he’s already crying tears into Eunhyuk’s shirt. Sungmin just watched along with Eeteuk and Kangin. Hankyung and Siwon were, like always, trying to calm Heechul’s nerves down. Yesung didn’t want to hear anymore. It was painful. Though he despised Kyuhyun for being able to have Ryeowook’s heart still, he didn’t want him to leave the group. It would put them in jeopardy.

“Calm down, Heechul!” Hankyung said a bit annoyed with Heechul’s temper.

“Kyuhyun, please you can’t leave like this!” Kibum frowned.

Kyuhyun fought hard not to cry. I’m sorry you guys…

“I’m sorry… I’ve already made my decision.” Kyuhyun mumbles sadly, not looking at anyone but the floor.

“How could you?!” Heechul screamed as tears fell down his face heavily.

“I’m so sorry hyung…”

Heechul releases himself from Siwon and Hankyung’s grip and runs to Kyuhyun. He begins hitting the magnae on his chest.

“I thought you were stronger than this, Kyuhyun!”

Yesung couldn’t take it anymore. If they kept going at this, Ryeowook may wake up.

“I thought you were–”

“Will you guys stop it?!” Yesung yells.

Everyone suddenly becomes quiet and stares at Yesung in shock.

“Can you guys… please stop? You guys are going to wake Ryeowook up.” He says irritated.

He gets up from his seat and storms off into Kyuhyun’s room, where Ryeowook’s sleeping. As soon as he disappears, Siwon pulls Heechul away from the beaten magnae. Eeteuk decides to talk.

“Kyuhyun, let me ask you this, okay?”

Kyuhyun only nods.

“Are you positive you really want to go?”

“Yes, hyung. It’s my final decision.” Kyuhyun answers with true honesty.

And that’s when everyone slowly leaves the room one by one. Soon it’s only Eeteuk and Kangin left. Kyuhyun feels like all of his energy had been drained from this one discussion. He gets up and walks over to Eeteuk and Kangin. When he’s about to apologize again, he’s taken by surprise. Eeteuk had enveloped him into a tight hug.

“It’s okay Kyuhyun. I understand. Even though I don’t want you to leave like this, I know I can’t stop you, so do as your heart says. I know you’re not doing anything wrong.” Eeteuk encourages.

And Kyuhyun cries on his shoulder. He feels Kangin come up behind him and pat his back.

“It’s alright, Kyuhyun.” Kangin cooes.


Yesung sat down on Kyuhyun’s bed, right beside Ryeowook. He smiled sadly down at the sleeping boy. He brought a hand to his face and softly caressed the high cheekbone.

“I love you, but why am I beginning to feel horrible? Is it because I took you from your real happiness? I fear of you leaving me all alone, Wook. But I know you won’t be happy with me. You only think you are. You’re true happiness is leaving though. He’s leaving now, and it’s my entire fault. I’m sorry, Ryeowook…”

Yesung bent down and placed a small kiss on Ryeowook’s forehead. He smiled once more at the boy below him.

“Rest well, my Ryeowook.” He whispered sweetly.

He gets up and opens the door, only to be surprise to see Kibum standing outside.

“C-Can we talk?” Kibum stutters.

Yesung only stares at the younger male.


“What is it do you want to tell me? If you’re here to give me a damn lecture about me stealing Ryeowook, then I don’t want to hear it.” Yesung says with his arms cross tightly across his chest.

“No… I… I…” Kibum stutters.

“You wha–”

Kibum plunges forward and presses his lips lightly against Yesung’s. The older male’s eyes widen in shock. He knows he should push away Kibum, but yet he can’t help but keep him there. Before anything else happens, Kibum slowly pulls away.

“Kibum…?” Yesung asks with confusion.

“Hyung… Hyung I… I’m sorry.” Kibum whispers and looks down.


“I’m sorry, Yesung. I’m sorry for having been so cold to you. I’m sorry. I know I’m being very ignorant for doing that to you, but I couldn’t help myself.”

Yesung listened carefully to his dongsaeng.

“Kyuhyun is leaving and I… I know now things will never be the same. I will never be with you,” tears brim his eyes as he speaks, “ever. So just this last time let me say something?”

Yesung nodded.

“Even though Kyuhyun is leaving, don’t you ever leave Ryeowook. Until he remembers, don’t ever leave him. Even if he ends up hating you for lying to him, at least he’ll remember how much he meant to you. Protect him in place of Kyuhyun. While you do that I will be forgetting how much I’ve loved you. How much I’ve craved for warmth from you, and how my heart was ruined. I’ll be moving on.” Kibum forces on a shaky smile for Yesung.

“Kibum, what…?” Yesung mumbles while taking a step toward the young man.

Kibum shakes his head and steps away from his reach.

“No, Yesung. I’m strong and you know it. I’m not going to cry over this like some teenage girl, okay,” he laughs a little, “I can forget too, haha. Don’t worry about me. I’ll be perfectly fine. Just please… I want you to watch over Ryeowook. Be happy with him.”

And before Yesung can even say a thing, Kibum turns around and quickly leaves the balcony. Yesung is breathless and confused. But what he can’t understand is the painful pounding of his heart. Why…?

so what do you guys think? shocker huh? keke~ was this an awesome comeback or what? xD but wow. so much seems to be going on isn't there? well, i'll try to update as soon as possible okay? but i can't promise any time soon! >.< comments are<333
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[Fanfic] Insomnia; Chapter 13

Title: Insomnia
Chapter: 13/??
Past Chapters: 01|02|03|04|05|06|07|08|09|10|11|12
Pairings: KyuWook, YeWook, KiSung (later on), etc. (other minor pairings).
Rating: PG-13
Genre: Angst, Romance
Summary: Kyuhyun and Ryeowook were a happy and lovely couple until Ryeowook fell into a coma. He wakes up and doesn't remember a thing about Super Junior. Yesung has been known to have a crush on Ryeowook. He's overjoyed, yet broken inside to know Ryeowook has no more memories of them. He takes this time to go on ahead and convince Ryeowook that they were lovers. Problems arise in Super Junior thanks to Yesung's doings. Kyuhyun can only do so little to help Ryeowook try and remember, but he knows it's almost impossible. Ryeowook knows Yesung's his "boyfriend", but he doesn't understand why he doesn't feel any love growing towards the man even when he does so much for him. Will he ever regain his memories and realize that Kyuhyun's really his love?
Author's Note: Oh my goodness! I've finally finished typing up this chapter! Hooray for me! And happiness to you all, my wonderful readers!<3 8D And I'm sorry I haven't updated in such a long time! But today I was able to find some time and actually get stuff written! So yayhoo! Kekekeke. xD And guess what?! My volleyball season is over in two weeks or so, so that means my updating pace may pick up a little after the 15th of October! Awesome, isn't it? (: So anyways, now you guys can go read! Enjoy this chapter because I think there's a few exciting things that happen! 8D LOL. Note: this is kind of an intense chappie? xD

Ryeowook is asked to watch over Kyuhyun for the next few days, against Yesung’s will. He did not want Ryeowook to watch over Kyuhyun. He knows what the band members are trying to do and even though he wants to object to the idea, he can’t because it’ll make Ryeowook curious. And if Ryeowook is curious, it won’t be good, so he acts as if everything is fine and goes to finish his schedule for the day.


Kyuhyun’s sleeping with a look of pain on his face. Ryeowook frowns and checks his temperature. It’s still high as ever, so he gets up to go rewet the damp cloth. He comes back a minute later and sits in his same spot on the bed beside the ill boy. He is taken aback when he’s about to place the cool cloth on Kyuhyun’s forehead and notices a few stray tears slipping through Kyuhyun’s lidded eyes. In quick, but soft motions, he pushes away the magnae’s wet bangs that are plastered to his forehead and places the wet cloth on Kyuhyun’s forehead. Just shortly afterwards he brings down a hand and carefully wipes away Kyuhyun’s tears with his delicate fingers.

“Kyuhyun are you okay…?” Ryeowook whispers with much concern.

He waits awhile, but receives no reply. Already knowing that Kyuhyun is asleep, he feels stupid for even asking. He can’t help himself from feeling the need to protect Kyuhyun, and make sure he becomes healthy and well again. He’s not sure why he’s feeling this way, but he’s willing to find out sometime soon. He sighs and stares down at the sleeping boy, without realizing it his hand begins caressing Kyuhyun’s cheek.

“Why do I do this, Kyuhyun…?” Ryeowook whispers.


Kibum walks into his room and catches Yesung sitting on his bed. His eyes are wide. What’s he doing here? The older of the two looks up and smiles a little up at the younger one. Kibum is lost and is unsure of what Yesung is up to. He takes his time to put his things away and can’t help but feel uncomfortable with the man’s gaze following his every move. He takes a seat beside Yesung, giving them space. They’re stuck in an unusual silence until Kibum is tired.

“Hyung, I want to sleep. I’m tired.” He mumbles.

Yesung looks at him and frowns a little.

“Kibum, can we talk?”

“About what? We could’ve talked weeks ago.” Kibum says tiredly.

“I know, but… can you just hear me out?” Yesung begs.

Kibum wishes he could say no, but he wants to hear what his hyung wants to say, and so he listens.

“I know you love me and I mean a lot to you, but… I’m sorry. I’m with Ryeowook now. I can’t just–”

Kibum doesn’t need to hear anymore. He’s tired of hearing the same words come out of the man’s mouth.

“He’s not yours! How many times… how many times do I have to ask you to accept that? He belongs with Kyuhyun, Yesung… They belong together. Just… let him go. Kyuhyun’s hurting as much as I am! We’re both hurting because of you!” Kibum cries out loud. “Stop telling me you’re sorry! Stop telling me you know I love you!

Yesung just stares at him, once again speechless. Kibum realizes that he’s never going to get a response from him.

“Can you leave me alone now? I’m tired.” Kibum asks.

“I’m sorry,” Yesung nods.

Kibum watches as he gets up and goes out of his room, behind his door. He lies down on his bed and curls into a ball. Tears skid across his face and fall onto the snow white pillow.

“I love you, you idiot…” Kibum whispers to no one.


Yesung is walking to his and Ryeowook’s room, but stops when he passes Sungmin’s and Kyuhyun’s room. He takes a peek through the crack of the door and doorframe. He frowns when he sees Ryeowook caress Kyuhyun’s face though. He wants to walk in, but feels too hurt to move. His hand on the door slightly gives way, causing the door to open a little more and creak. He takes a quick step away from the the door and rushes his way to his room. Why is it him?


Ryeowook hears a creak and quickly removes his hand from Kyuhyun’s face. He looks up at the door and sees that the door had been pushed further open. He wonders who it is, but seeing that no one is planning on coming in, he calms himself down and looks down at Kyuhyun again. He gets up and goes to look out into the hallway. He sees no one and decides to shut the door due to the loud buzzing coming from Donghae and Eunhyuk’s videogame.

He walks back to Kyuhyun’s bed and lies down beside him with the little space he had. He hums that unknown song once again and before he knows it, he’s singing to it. As he continues to sing, he starts to wonder. Where have I heard this song? How do I even know it? Does it mean something? He finishes it and frowns. He was tired. Very tired. He feels his eye lids start to close and then he’s slipping into a peaceful darkness. But before he did he had one last thought: Why is it, that I can fall asleep so easily beside him?


Eeteuk yells at Eunhyuk and Donghae for being too noisy. It was late and he and many of the others were tired. The rest never really understood why Eunhyuk and Donghae could just keep going even when they were exhausted. But he wasn’t going to find out anyways. The two boys pout like puppies and turn off their game. They drag their feet heavily on the floors to their shared room. Eeteuk just laughs at them.

“Those two,” he smiles.

He remembers he wants to check on Kyuhyun and Ryeowook, so he starts walking to the room they were in. He makes sure not to make any noise when he opens the door. He’s shocked to see Ryeowook asleep beside Kyuhyun, squished on the small twin sized bed. But nonetheless he smiles at the scene because it reminds him of the past when KyuWook used to be together–happily together. He stares at the sweet scene.


Eeteuk becomes a little startled when he feels Kangin’s hushed greeting against his ear and his big arms wrapping around his thin frame. He turns his head to the side to look at his boyfriend, and Kangin plants a soft kiss on his cheek, warming it.

“Looks like how it used to be, huh,” Kangin smiles at the scene before him and his lover.

“Yes, it does indeed,” Eeteuk nods.

They watch the ex-couple for a few more minutes until Eeteuk decides that it’s time for them to leave the two magnaes alone and head off to bed. Kangin replies with a quiet, but tiring “okay” before they both wish Kyuhyun luck and close the door.


Since Ryeowook was sleeping in Kyuhyun’s room, Sungmin had decided to stay in Yesung’s until Kyuhyun had fully healed. He watches as Yesung tosses and turns in the bed across from his. He wonders what’s bothering the man so much tonight.

“Are you okay?” Sungmin asks.

Yesung stops to stare at the ceiling.


“Something’s bothering you, isn’t it?”

Yesung doesn’t answer.

“Let me guess, something about Ryeowook?” Sungmin chuckles.

“It’s not funny, Sungmin.” Yesung says in a serious voice.

“I know, hyung.” Sungmin says, while he stops his laughing.

“I don’t like how he has to take care of Kyuhyun. It’s–”

“It’s to help him, hyung.”

“It is supposed to help him regain his memories. To help him remember Kyuhyun. And I don’t want him to remember, Sungmin! I don’t want him to leave me just because of those memories. I love him. I love him. I’m so scared he might suddenly jump up the next day only to remember that he loves Kyuhyun, our magnae and not me. I’m worried he may realize that Kyuhyun’s his boyfriend and not me.”

Sungmin just sits and listens to his hyung’s worries. His hyung was crazy in love and he felt bad for him.

“I really want to be with him, Sungmin. I really want him to see only me and nobody else. Why can’t it be that easy? I’ve loved him ever since I’ve met him. I feel so stupid for never letting him know my feelings. I wish I had fought harder for him. If I did, maybe we could’ve been a true couple. Maybe then, he wouldn’t have been with Kyuhyun because then I would be the one giving him every single thing he needs and not Kyuhyun. I don’t want him to leave me, Sungmin. The thought’s painful. It kills me, knowing that Ryeowook could remember any moment.

Yesung’s crying now. Sungmin goes over and embraces his hyung.

“There are times when you must sacrifice one thing you absolutely love even if you don’t want to. And when the time comes, you are forced to let it go. Even so, the best will always come out of it. Trust me, hyung. When your time comes, and you let go, you’ll feel like you’re falling down from the tallest mountain ever, but don’t you forget, there is always something or someone who will help catch you and brighten up your life. You can’t live a solemn life forever.” Sungmin says.

And Yesung shuts his eyes close, more tears falling.

“I know… I know. I can’t keep him forever with me even if I wanted to… I can’t.” Yesung murmurs sadly along with a broken smile because he knows his time is coming soon.

so? hehe! did you guys enjoy it? awesome yes? we're able to really see what poor yesungie is feeling inside, and how confused ryeowook has become. kekeke. and will kyuhyun get better soon? will the luck kangteuk wished for kyuhyun actually work? hmm... until the next chapter, we'll see. i love you all~ now comment aways to make me happy! 8D
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[Drabble] KyuWook; Blue Tomorrow? Maybe.

Title: Blue Tomorrow? Maybe.
Pairing: KyuWook
Rating: PG
Genre: Romance
Summary: Ryeowook is tired of having blue tomorrows.
Author's Note: Wrote this today because I'm bored and I don't want to do my homework. And it's to make up to my wonderful readers, since I haven't been able to update "Insomnia" for about a good two to three weeks now. I'm so sorry to you guys, by the way for not updating. I've been super busy, so there's a lot of stress. But there is a link to a preview of the next chapter to Insomnia, which I'm not done writing up yet. So my wonderful Insomnia readers, keep your eyes open for it! And now you may go read this sorry gift, my readers. xD

“Yah, Kim Ryeowook!”

Ryeowook turns around from the sound of his name resonating off of someone’s tongue. He’s stun to see the one and only person he’s been waiting for so long, just a few meters away from him. The other boy smiles at him and he can’t help but manage a shaky smile, as tears of joy engulf his eyes. He drops the textbooks in his arms and they fall onto the sidewalk. He dashes over to the said boy, who had his arms extended out to him. He slams into him hard, and wraps his arms around his waist tightly as he cries.

“You’re b-back, Kyuhyun!” He says through broken sobs.

Ryeowook hears Kyuhyun chuckle a little and he soon feels the younger male’s arms embrace him. He buries his face deeper into Kyuhyun’s chest and lets out more sobs. Kyuhyun feels his shirt dampen, but doesn’t really seem to care. But once he knows this boy isn’t going to stop crying any soon, he pulls away just enough to take a look at Ryeowook’s tearstained face. He smiles sweetly at him.

“Why are you crying,” he gently wipes away his hyung’s tears with the pads of his fingers.

Ryeowook can’t stop the happy tears from flowing.

“B-Because you’re f-finally b-back; I’ve w-waited two years a-and you’ve finally c-come back home… I missed you so much.” Ryeowook, the hyung, although smaller, cries.

Kyuhyun grins happily at those words. He pulls Ryeowook back and hugs him again.

“I missed you too, hyung~” Kyuhyun coos. “I’m never going away for that long again. I love you, Ryeowook.”

And Ryeowook stops crying because now he knows this is real. Now he knows that Kyuhyun is really back. And now he knows that their love will glow like never before, and it makes him happy because he won’t have to live with blue tomorrows anymore. Everything will be okay now. Possibly better…

soooo? hehe! i hope you guys liked this! and yay, to the happy ending! and one more thing. my volleyball season is almost over, so i'll be updating "Insomnia" soon! (: And here's the link to a preview of the next chapter!: Preview of Chapter 13.
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[Preview] Insomnia; Chapter 13

Preview to Chapter 13 of Insomnia.

He sighs and stares down at the sleeping boy, without realizing it his hand begins caressing his cheek.

“I love you, you idiot..." Kibum whispers to no one.

“Kibum, can we talk?”

He watches as he gets up and goes out of his room, behind his door. He lies down on his bed and curls into a ball. Tears skid across his face and fall onto the snow white pillow.

"Why do I do this, Kyuhyun...?" Ryeowook whispers.

yes... i know it's a very short preview! xD but it's all because i haven't been able to type much of it yet! so please await the next chappie! 8D i love you, my readers!<3

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[Fanfic] Insomnia; Chapter 12

Title: Insomnia
Chapter: 12/??
Past Chapters: 01|02|03|04|05|06|07|08|09|10|11
Pairings: KyuWook, YeWook, KiSung (later on), etc. (other minor pairings).
Rating: PG-13
Genre: Angst, Romance
Summary: Kyuhyun and Ryeowook were a happy and lovely couple until Ryeowook fell into a coma. He wakes up and doesn't remember a thing about Super Junior. Yesung has been known to have a crush on Ryeowook. He's overjoyed, yet broken inside to know Ryeowook has no more memories of them. He takes this time to go on ahead and convince Ryeowook that they were lovers. Problems arise in Super Junior thanks to Yesung's doings. Kyuhyun can only do so little to help Ryeowook try and remember, but he knows it's almost impossible. Ryeowook knows Yesung's his "boyfriend", but he doesn't understand why he doesn't feel any love growing towards the man even when he does so much for him. Will he ever regain his memories and realize that Kyuhyun's really his love?
Author's Note: Hey guys! I was able to get another update done because luckily I didn't get any weekend homework except for syllabuses. 8D But this chapter is short, I've gotta say. Not much happens either, just some interesting convos? LOL. I don't know. Just be happy I was able to update? (: Now go read aways because who knows how long it may take for my next update? >.<

Kibum comes home to find Yesung alone in the kitchen. He frowns when he notices the purplish bruise by Yesung’s lip. He walks into the kitchen and grabs a cup of water. Yesung isn’t surprise to see him. It was midnight and that’s when Kibum usually finishes all of his schedules for the day. Kibum’s back is resting against the counter as he drinks. Yesung is right next to him.

“I heard Kyuhyun hit you today.” Kibum decides to speak.

“Hah, news sure gets around fast.” Yesung laughs a little.

“Are… Are you okay?”

“I’m fine, just a little sore.”

“Oh…” Kibum frowns some more.

It becomes quiet between the both of them for awhile.

“Shouldn’t you be in bed with Ryeowook?” Kibum forces himself to ask.

Yesung turns to look at him with a small frown. Kibum’s putting his cup into the sink.


“I know I shouldn’t have asked that. I was just curious because he has insomnia, you know.” Kibum defends himself as he turns his attention back to Yesung.

Yesung only nods.

“Well, I’m going to bed now. You should too, hyung. See you in the morning.”

Kibum turns around and starts walking out of the kitchen.

“Wait Kibum…” Yesung says.

The young boy turns around and looks at him with questioning eyes. Yesung’s mouth was open, but he doesn’t even know what he was planning to say.


Yesung closes his mouth and shakes his head.

“No… never mind, Kibum. You can go.” Yesung smiles a little.

Kibum feels a little uneasy, but ignores the feeling and walks off to his shared room with Shindong.


“I love you, Wookie. You must work hard to find me.” The voice tells him.

Ryeowook’s frantically looking for the source of that voice. He’s running and running in what seemed like an endless prairie. He’s positive it’s not Yesung’s voice, but he can’t help thinking it sounds like someone he knows.

“No… who are you?” He asks the voice. “Do I know you?”

“You must find me, Ryeowook. You have to…” the voice replies.

The voice is beginning to fade further away and Ryeowook becomes frantic.

“I know that voice…” Ryeowook murmurs to himself as he runs.

“Ryeowook, find me…” the voice echoes.

“No! No, come back!” Ryeowook shakes his head.

“I’m still waiting. Find me, Wookie. I love you…” the voice sounds so very far away now.

Ryeowook drops to the ground and cries.

“No!!!” He howls.

Ryeowook jerks up from his bed yelling Yesung’s name as he sobs. Yesung runs into the room and sees a frantic Ryeowook. He sees the magnae’s shoulders shaking and quickly goes over to embrace him. Ryeowook clings onto his pajama top and buries his face into his chest.

“Shh… I’m right here, Wook,” he coos, “Everything will be okay.”

Ryeowook shakes his head and lets out a small whimper. It wasn’t the first time Ryeowook’s ever had such a dream since his accident.

“I want to remember, Yesung… I want to remember now…” Ryeowook sobs.

The older man tenses a bit at his words, but Ryeowook couldn’t notice.

“It was just a nightmare, Ryeowook. It’s okay.” Yesung comforts.

“Don’t leave me,” the younger male pleas.

“I won’t. I’ll be right here.” Yesung promises and kisses the top of his head.

Ryeowook closes his eyes tightly and calms down.


“Chullie-ah…?” Siwon calls from the other side of the room.

Heechul doesn’t answer.

“Heechul, please cheer up.” Hankyung insists.

“We love you.” Siwon says softly, hoping that’d make a change.

“I know you both do.” Heechul replies, as if reading a line from some text book.

Hankyung goes over to the older male and lies down next to him on the bed. Heechul snuggles into his warmth. Siwon follows Hankyung’s actions shortly afterwards. Heechul feels Siwon come up behind him and wrap his arms around his waist. He’s now sandwiched between his two lovers.

“Please don’t be mad at Eeteuk anymore.” Siwon whispers. “I know you’re upset, but please understand him, too.”

“Siwon’s right, Cinderella.” Hankyung pouts cutely.

Heechul smiles a little at the sight of Hankyung’s adorable face in front of him and reaches to caress his cheek.

“I know you two. I know I shouldn’t be mad at him. I know that he’s just trying to protect everyone and Ryeowook, but it’s just so hard to hide everything.” Heechul murmurs quietly. “Kyuhyun means a lot to me and it bothers knowing how much our magnae is hurting. He has to face Yesung and Ryeowook everyday and I think it’s unfair. So help me please by not making me feel guilty for being so cold to you guys these days.”

Siwon chuckles a little, and Hankyung gives him a warm smile.

“Even if you become cold as ice to us, we’ll still love you because we just know how you are.” Siwon breathes onto the back of his neck.

“Yes, this is Kim Heechul for us.” Hankyung giggles.

Heechul grins at the love his boyfriends are showering at him. He loves being with them. They always make him feel like he’s someone really important and someone who deserves the most love in the world. He nuzzles his head onto Hankyung’s chest and sighs.

“I love you both.” He giggles.

“We love you too!” Both men said.

“So… will you apologize to Eeteuk tomorrow?” Hankyung asks.

Heechul scoffs at his boyfriend and hits him playfully on the chest.

“I’ll think about it.”


Sungmin wakes up from the sound of Kyuhyun whimpering. He sits up and looks at the boy sleeping on the other side. He sees him tossing here and there in bed.

“Kyu…?” Sungmin calls his name in question form.

As he continues to toss and turn Sungmin panics and gets out of bed. He rushes to the magnae’s side and turns on the lamp. He notices the beads of sweat on Kyuhyun’s forehead and how pale he looks. Sungmin palms Kyuhyun’s forehead and is surprise at how warm he is. He shakes the magnae a little, trying to wake him up from what seems to be a terrifying slumber. Kyuhyun doesn’t respond, but only whimpers. Not caring if he wakes up the other members, he calls for Eeteuk.

“Hyung! Hyung-ah! Eeteuk hyung!” Sungmin screams frantically.

And in a matter of a couple seconds, their leader is bursting through the door, his body filled with only concern.

“What’s wrong?!” Eeteuk exclaims.

The rest of the members are awoken from this and they gather outside the room.

“Hyung! Kyuhyun has a high fever and he’s not responding to me that well!” Sungmin cries.

oh noes! kyu's sick! D: will he get better? and my, my, wook's dreams are getting more interesting yes? hehehe. i'll try to update soon! and i'm sorry the yebum scene isn't much. @________@ i couldn't really think of anything. lol.
cute ryeowook

[Fanfic] Insomnia; Chapter 11

Title: Insomnia
Chapter: 11/??
Past Chapters: 01 | 02 | 03 | 04 | 05 | 06 | 07 | 08 | 09 | 10
Pairings: KyuWook, YeWook, KiSung (later on), etc. (other minor pairings).
Rating: PG-13
Genre: Angst, Romance
Summary: Kyuhyun and Ryeowook were a happy and lovely couple until Ryeowook fell into a coma. He wakes up and doesn't remember a thing about Super Junior. Yesung has been known to have a crush on Ryeowook. He's overjoyed, yet broken inside to know Ryeowook has no more memories of them. He takes this time to go on ahead and convince Ryeowook that they were lovers. Problems arise in Super Junior thanks to Yesung's doings. Kyuhyun can only do so little to help Ryeowook try and remember, but he knows it's almost impossible. Ryeowook knows Yesung's his "boyfriend", but he doesn't understand why he doesn't feel any love growing towards the man even when he does so much for him. Will he ever regain his memories and realize that Kyuhyun's really his love?
Author's Note: Oh my god, I'm so happy I was able to get this chapter and another update done before starting school! 8D But this chapter was a bit rushed because I really wanted to have one more update before I start school. So yea it's not all that great. I'm not that satisfied with it. @______@ You will notice I rushed with this one because I hardly wrote? Pretty much just talking, lol. So this would be considered a "boring" chapter. But you can't skip it because there is something exciting that happens somewhere. xD Anyways, I hope you guys enjoy this chapter even though it's not much because it will be my very last update till awhile, maybe.

Yesung wakes up and realizes that Ryeowook isn’t in bed. He gets out of bed and heads to check the bathroom, but the door was open and the light was off. Yesung decides to wash up and change before continuing his search. After he finishes, he walks to the kitchen to see if Ryeowook is there, but to his surprise he wasn’t. Where is he? But then he notices someone standing on the balcony. It was Kyuhyun. He walks out to the balcony as well and takes a place by Kyuhyun.

It felt nice. There is a mild breeze, giving off some fresh morning air. He lets out of satisfying sigh and Kyuhyun turns his head to look at him. The magnae is astonished to see his hyung there, but either way turns his attention back to the city view. They are quiet for awhile, both just enjoying the nice air. But Kyuhyun thinks this is the only time he will have to talk to Yesung privately. It was still pretty early, so most of the members were still sleeping.

“Why did you do it?” He keeps his gaze out towards the city as he asks his question.

“Tell him lies?” Yesung replies with a small laugh at the end.

“Why did you do it, hyung?” Kyuhyun repeats the question.

“I think out of everyone, you know fairly well why I did it.” Yesung smirks a little while speaking.

“I love him though. I still love him now, too.”

Yesung laughs at Kyuhyun’s words.

“Kyuhyun, there’s one thing you still don’t understand: I love him, too.”

“I had him first though.” Kyuhyun says in a thick voice as he looks at his hyung.

“Well, I’m sorry. He doesn’t remember your relationship with him, so you might as well give up, Kyuhyun.”

And that breaks Kyuhyun apart. He feels anger begin to boil up inside of him. How dare he tell me to give up?!

“Face it, no matter what you do, or what you try to do, he won’t come back to you because he’s in love with me now. It’s been almost two months, just go find someone else.” Yesung tries to say nicely, as he too, faces Kyuhyun.

You jerk!” Kyuhyun yells angrily.

He throws a punch to Yesung’s left cheek. Yesung hardly has any time to move before he feels something hard contact his face. He falls onto the floor and groans in pain. Kyuhyun gets on top of Yesung and they begin throwing punches at one another. A few seconds in, Kangin and Eeteuk comes out of nowhere and grabs him off of Yesung. The rest of the members are now crowded by the balcony doorway.

“Kyuhyun, what do you think you’re doing?!” Eeteuk panics.

“Let me go,” he tries to pull away from Kangin and Eeteuk’s grip, “Let me beat the crap out of this bastard!”

Just then Ryeowook runs out onto the balcony and crouches down beside Yesung. Kyuhyun freezes. He went to Yesung…

“Yesung!” Ryeowook cries.

The eternal magnae helps pull Yesung up to his feet, and wraps one of his boyfriend's arms around his shoulders. Ryeowook takes a quick look at Kyuhyun before taking Yesung away with him. Kyuhyun notices his eyes showed disappointment and confusion. It is then when he realizes what he’s done and guilt begins to eat at him.


“Ah…” Yesung hisses.

“Sorry.” Ryeowook apologizes and dabs softer. “What happened?”

“It’s nothing. Kyuhyun was just in a bad mood today. I shouldn’t have bothered him.” Yesung lies.

Ryeowook stops and frowns at him.

“What?” Yesung asks.

“If he was in a bad mood, then why’d you bother him? You could’ve gotten worse if Eeteuk and Kangin didn’t find the both of you!” Ryeowook exclaimed.

“I’m sorry. It just happened.” Yesung fakes a smile.

“Now you’re just not making any sense,” he frowns even more.

“Aish, would you just hurry up and finish fixing up my face please? You don’t want me looking like some monster for the rest of my life, do you?”

“I think you deserve to, since you messed with Kyuhyun.” Ryeowook giggles.

Ryeowook presses down the cotton ball hard on one of his bruises.

“OWW,” Yesung screeches.

Ryeowook just laughs at his boyfriend’s sufferings.

“Where did you go last night anyways?” Yesung finally remembers to ask.

“Oh, I fell asleep in Hyunnie’s room last night.”

Yesung looks at Ryeowook with wide eyes.

“You what?”

“I accidentally fell asleep in Kyuhyun’s room. I’m sorry if I scared you a little this morning.” Ryeowook explains for his disappearance.

“Oh… okay.” Yesung says frowning.


“Why’d you start hitting him? Did he say something to you?” Eeteuk questions.

Kyuhyun laughs a little.

“Of course he said something. If he didn’t, would I have beaten him up?” Kyuhyun scoffs.

Eeteuk sighs as he finishes the last of Kyuhyun’s bruises.

“You just ruined a big chance of getting Ryeowook. If you still want that chance, I suggest you go and apologize to Yesung.” Eeteuk insists.

“But hyung, he–”

“Ah, ah, ah,” he brings up his pointer finger, “you were wrong also. Now do what I tell you to and go apologize when you’ve calmed down and thought about what you did.”

Kyuhyun doesn’t say anything as Eeteuk leaves his room.


Kibummie~ You just missed an awesome fight!
Kyuhyun owned Yesung on the balcony! >:]
When you come home, I’ll tell you all about it!
-Pretty Cinderella Heechullie.

Kibum laughs a bit at the text message he just received from Heechul. Kyuhyun pawned Yesung, huh? Wish I was there. He sighs and lifts up his head a bit so his makeup artist could finish fixing up his face. He never understood why he needed makeup on anyways. He looks fine without any on.

“Five more minutes then your break is over!” The director informs.

“Yeh~” Kibum replies.

I hope Kyuhyun didn’t beat Yesung too badly.


Ryeowook knocks on Kyuhyun’s bedroom door.

“Who is it?” Kyuhyun demands.

He’s been in his room all day. Luckily today was their day off so they didn’t have anything much to do.

“I-It’s me, Hyunnie.” Ryeowook answers hesitantly.

Kyuhyun doesn’t answer and he takes that as his cue to go in. He’s not surprised to see Sungmin with Kyuhyun, but for some reason he couldn’t help but feel a little jealous. Sungmin gets up to leave them some privacy. Ryeowook goes to take Sungmin’s place on the office chair near Kyuhyun’s bed. He spins on it from side to side as he observes his dongsaeng.

“What are you doing here?” Kyuhyun asks. “Shouldn't you be taking care of Yesung?”

Ryeowook grimaces at the way he calls out Yesung’s name.

“Why did you hit him?”

Kyuhyun chuckles a little.

“He bothered me. I wasn’t in a good mood this morning.” Kyuhyun lies.

Ryeowook quirks up an eyebrow at Kyuhyun’s reply. He isn’t sure if he should believe Kyuhyun’s reply. It was exactly the same thing Yesung said, but he couldn’t help but to find out the truth. Things seem really suspicious to him.

“You’re lying,” Ryeowook purposely says.

“Just leave me alone right now! I’m not in the mood to talk to you!” Kyuhyun says a bit too harshly as he whips around to look at his hyung.

Ryeowook flinches at his tone. What’s wrong with him today? He is–for the first time, ever , scared of Kyuhyun.

“…You don’t need to yell at me.” Ryeowook whispers sadly. “You could’ve just told me nicely.”

Kyuhyun sighs and shuts his eyes tightly for a second before reopening them.

“I’m sorry… I didn’t mean to snap at you like that.” He says softly. “I’m really just not in the mood to talk to anyone right now, so it’s best to leave me alone for now.”

“It’s okay… I understand. I’ll leave you alone now.” Ryeowook murmurs apologetically.

He gets up and is about to leave when Kyuhyun suddenly sits up and grabs his hand. He pulls Ryeowook to him and hugs him tightly. Ryeowook is taken by surprise and tries to push Kyuhyun away from him.

“Hyung… I’m sorry. I’m so sorry for hitting Yesung. I didn’t mean to! It just happened! Please don’t be upset with me!” Kyuhyun cries into his hyung’s shoulder.

Ryeowook is unsure of what to do and just sits there. He hesitantly wraps his arms around the magnae and pats his back.

“I’m not mad at you, Hyunnie…” Ryeowook says with a smile.

Kyuhyun just holds onto him tighter. I know you’re not. Kim Ryeowook can almost never get mad. I just need someone to hold onto right now… Someone who I know loves me.

so? haha. boring much, yes? xD but ooh, did you guys enjoy the surprise? cause i sure hope you guys did! 8D comments<3 and so like i said earlier, my next update won't be till awhile. till then, please be strong and wait for me to comeback? who knows? i might not be as busy as i think i will be, but we'll see. i'll miss you, my precious readers!<3 i'll try to update as soon as i can too!
cute ryeowook

[Fanfic] Insomnia; Chapter 10

Title: Insomnia
Chapter: 10/??
Past Chapters: 01 | 02 | 03 | 04 | 05 | 06 | 07 | 08 | 09
Pairings: KyuWook, YeWook, KiSung (later on), etc. (other minor pairings).
Rating: PG-13
Genre: Angst, Romance
Summary: Kyuhyun and Ryeowook were a happy and lovely couple until Ryeowook fell into a coma. He wakes up and doesn't remember a thing about Super Junior. Yesung has been known to have a crush on Ryeowook. He's overjoyed, yet broken inside to know Ryeowook has no more memories of them. He takes this time to go on ahead and convince Ryeowook that they were lovers. Problems arise in Super Junior thanks to Yesung's doings. Kyuhyun can only do so little to help Ryeowook try and remember, but he knows it's almost impossible. Ryeowook knows Yesung's his "boyfriend", but he doesn't understand why he doesn't feel any love growing towards the man even when he does so much for him. Will he ever regain his memories and realize that Kyuhyun's really his love?
Author's Note: Wee~ Aren't you guys happy? I'm back with ANOTHER update! (: I was able to write another chapter today, which is good~ I hope you guys enjoy this one too! But there is more angst in this one I believe, but who knows? It could just be me. xD I also changed my writing tense to present tense. I realized I write so much better this way~ 8D Anyways, go read aways~ This is my last update for awhile, probably. >.< But we'll see what happens! ^^L

For the next few days, Kibum and Yesung hardly talks to one another. When other members ask Kibum why he doesn’t come out to spend time with them when he’s on breaks, he tells them he’s busy with his script and doesn’t want to be bothered. It’s weird he says that because he’s memorizing the same old script every time they ask and it’s almost worrisome.

When they ask Yesung why he’s been drifting off to his own little world these days he answers, “I’m just tired from our packed schedules.” But the funny thing is, his schedule hasn’t been all that packed; just performances, Star King, and sometimes radio broadcasts. Many of them are beginning to notice the weird atmosphere between the magnae and hyung.


“Yesung…?” Ryeowook calls his name in a slight whisper.

Yesung looks up from his book and sees a nervous Ryeowook standing not far from the door and his bed. His heart jumps a bit at the sight. He’s so cute. Ryeowook tries to avoid eye contact.

“Umm… c-can I ask you something?” The eternal magnae stutters his question adorably.

Yesung manages a chuckle. He extends his arms out towards his boyfriend and waits for him to cuddle next to him in bed. Ryeowook looks up a little and goes to settle next to Yesung, arms hooking around one another.

“What is it?” Yesung asks.

“I... I wanted to ask…”

Ryeowook is unsure if he should ask his question or not. He wasn’t sure how Yesung would react, so it scared him. What if he doesn’t want to talk about it and gets mad? Yesung already knows what Ryeowook wants to ask, so he doesn’t want to wait.

“Just tell me, Wook. I promise I won’t get mad if it’s about Kibum.” Yesung says.

“Promise me?” He says looking up at him with shiny eyes.

“Promise,” Yesung nods.

“Okay,” the magnae sighs, “what happened between Kibum and you?”

Yesung knew this was what he wanted to ask him, but he frowned either way at actually hearing it come out of Ryeowook’s mouth. He isn’t sure if he wants to answer because he doesn’t want to lose Ryeowook, or at the most, hurt him.

“It’s nothing you need to worry about.” Yesung says with an assuring smile.

But Ryeowook doesn’t buy it. He wants to know what made those two avoid each other. Why everything they use as an excuse made no sense. Why they won’t tell anyone about this problem of theirs.

“Please, tell me. I’m worried, Sungie…” Ryeowook murmurs sadly.

Yesung smiles a little more and tightens his arms around his boyfriend. He places a gentle kiss on top of Ryeowook’s head and lingers there for awhile.

“Everything is fine, Wook. Trust me, alright?” Yesung whispers into his hair.

“But…” Ryeowook is about to lift his head and stare at him, but Yesung speaks.

“Shh, don’t talk about it anymore okay?”

Ryeowook sighs and gives up. Why won’t he tell me?

“Okay,” Ryeowook nods. At least he’s not mad.


Kyuhyun takes a seat at the end of Kibum’s bed. Kibum ignores him and fakes focusing on his stupid script. Well, it’s not stupid, but that’s what he thinks of it right now. Kyuhyun notices Kibum trying way too hard to focus on his script and thinks it’s time for him to find out what Kibum did.


Kibum let’s out a quiet maniac laugh and drops the script onto his lap.

“I told him, Kyuhyun. I told him I love him.” Kibum says pathetically.

Oh hyung…” Kyuhyun replies.

Kyuhyun moves over to his hyung and offers him a hug. Kibum willingly clings onto Kyuhyun’s shirt and cries.

“Why did everything have to end up like this?” Kibum sobs. “I’ve always been with him, Kyuhyun–always. But why does he only see Ryeowook? How come?

Kyuhyun doesn’t answer because he can’t find any words to say to Kibum.

“I’m so sorry this had to happen. Maybe if I hadn’t allowed them to convince me to come home, none of this would’ve happened.” Kyuhyun says.

Kibum clings tighter and more tears come.

“I don’t feel like myself anymore. I’ve read this script over so many times I automatically know my lines. But… this will never be as much as the tears I’ve cried every night, since I told him my feelings, Kyuhyun.” Kibum mutters.

“I’m sorry, Kibum…”

Kyuhyun holds his hyung because that is all he could do for him–for now anyways.


“So that’s what happened…” Eeteuk nods.

“I never expected Kibum to actually confess to Yesung, man.” Eunhyuk says with his eyes wide.

“Me too…” Siwon agrees.

“Who told you to spy on Kyuhyun and Kibum anyways?!” Eeteuk directs his question to Donghae angrily.

“I didn’t mean to,” Donghae pouts, “I was just walking by and then I heard them talking, and, and it just happened!”

Eunhyuk immediately embraces his fishy and shushes him because he has tears in his eyes.

“Don’t yell at him, Eeteuk. You know he’s emotional.” Heechul defends his dongsaeng. “Plus, you should be glad he overheard them because now we know what happened!”

Heechul had his arms crossed over his chest. Eeteuk sighed and rolled his eyes.

“I guess you’re right,” their leader says.

“I feel bad for them.” Kangin says with much pity.

“Pssh,” Heechul scoffs in disbelief, “Even for that bastard?!”

“Heechul,” Eeteuk warns. “Don’t forget Ryeowook’s still here and he knows nothing about this.”

He didn’t want Ryeowook to walk in on them having such conversations. If the eternal magnae does, they’d be ruined and everything would become messed up. Therefore they must be extremely cautious when he’s around.

“I don’t give a damn if he’s here, Jungsu!” Heechul yells.

A few gasps are heard about in the room at the use of Eeteuk’s real name coming out of Heechul’s mouth. It meant Heechul was furious.

“Calm down, Chullie…” Hankyung says.

He grabs Heechul’s arm and tries to pull his lover to Siwon and him, but he only resists and pushes his hands away.

“Heechul, don’t…” Siwon says dangerously.

“That bastard is breaking us, our family apart! Don’t you guys understand?!” Heechul cries in complete madness. “I don’t understand why you guys are still shadowing over him! He hurt our younger brothers!”

“No, Heechul. You’re the one that doesn’t get it.” Eeteuk argues back.

What?” Heechul glares at his leader.

“We’re not shadowing him. We’re shadowing Ryeowook. If we don’t act normal around Yesung, you know very well things can get out of hand. How would we deal with it then? Are you willing to fix everything if we decide to show our true feelings towards Yesung,” their leader questions.

Heechul doesn’t answer because he knows the elder’s words have a lot of truth in them.

“This… is a bunch of crap.”

Those were Heechul’s last words before he stormed off down the hallway. The next thing they heard was a door slamming shut. Eeteuk felt wetness in his eyes, but he wasn’t about to break down in front of his fellow members. No, you can’t cry today. You must be strong for them.

“…Hyungs?” Ryeowook comes into the room suddenly.

All their heads turn to see a confused Ryeowook standing not far from them. Eeteuk sighs and prays that Ryeowook didn’t hear anything from their conversation.

“Ryeowook,” Eeteuk breathes.

“What’s wrong with Heechul hyung?” Ryeowook asks. “And why does everyone look somber?”

Eeteuk smiles shakily and blinks away his tears.

“Heechul’s just mad at us for not reminding him to go to the gym today with Jay from the Trax.” Eeteuk lies.

“But… but I heard you guys yelling?” Ryeowook says a little unsure himself, and turns to look at Kangin.

“Haha, it was just Heechul blaming us and us trying to apologize.” Kangin plays along.

Ryeowook nods in understanding, but still feels suspicious of everything.


At night, Ryeowook decides to go and check up on Kyuhyun.

He knocks on the door to Kyuhyun and Sungmin’s shared bedroom.

“Come in.” He hears Kyuhyun’s voice from the other side of the door.

He grins to himself and opens the door. Kyuhyun was on his laptop like always. He closes the door behind him, and he doesn’t notice how Kyuhyun rushes to close something on his computer screen.

“H-Hey hyung,” Kyuhuyn stutters nervously.

Ryeowook gives him a funny look.

“What’s with the stutter?” Ryeowook asks.

“Huh? I didn’t stutter!” Kyuhyun protests.

“You did too,” the eternal magnae giggles as he speaks.

“Whatever~” Kyuhyun brushes him off.

Ryeowook giggles some more before walking over and taking a seat right next to his “favorite” dongsaeng. He peeks over Kyuhyun’s shoulder.

“What are you looking at?” Ryeowook asks.

“Oh, nothing much; I was just watching some covers of our songs and dances.” Kyuhyun lies.

“Hmm… Is that so? Because I see no window showing videos~” Ryeowook teases.

“I was doing that before you came in!”

“Mhm, sure~” Ryeowook says in a singsong voice, as he pretends to take a look around the room.

Kyuhyun laughs a little and opens up a new window to search things up on the internet. Ryeowook just watches.

“I’m not tired yet and since Yesung’s probably already sleeping, I don’t want to wake him up. So… can I stay here for a bit?” Ryeowook asks with puppy eyes.

“Let’s see, Sungmin went out to eat with the other guys and they probably won’t be back till late, so why not? I don’t see why it would be a bad idea to have you in here.” Kyuhyun smiles warmly down at Ryeowook.

“Oh goodie, goodie!” Ryeowook beams with joy. “Thanks Kyuhyun! I love you, my awesome, cute dongsaeng!”

And he squishes Kyuhyun against him in a tight hug. Kyuhyun feels his heart pick up pace and he’s blushing. He’s hugging me again! And he said he loves me. But when Ryeowook’s hug gets a little bit too tight, he decides it’s time for him to let go before he suffocates.

“Uhh… H-Hyung? You can let go now…” Kyuhyun insists.

“Huh? Oh, yes! I’m sorry, Kyuhyun~” Ryeowook panics.

He quickly pulls away from Kyuhyun, and they’re a little awkward. And Kyuhyun thinks, Hah, just like the last time…

“It’s okay, hyung.” Kyuhyun smiles again.

Ryeowook’s heart flutters and he feels butterflies in his stomach. He ignores it and makes himself comfortable on Kyuhyun’s bed. He lies down and hums a tune unfamiliar to him, but soon he realizes Kyuhyun’s singing the same tune he’s humming. So he stops and just listens to Kyuhyun’s deep soothing voice.

(click here: Tim – Lullaby)
Nunul gamgo duroyo jago giphun sumsori
Maumnohgo shwioyo ine mannayo
Jagun jagun kumneum
Soriobnun bamneum

Jogum jogum udgo ine johun kumul kunabwa
Negen kumiji norul barabonun ironpunggyong
Goulgathun nimosubi negen jonbuya
Hosugathun noui pumi naui jibiya

Hmm~ Hmm~ Hmm~
Hmm~ Hmm~ Hmm~

And before he knows it his eyes are falling shut, and he’s asleep beside Kyuhyun on his dongsaeng’s bed. When Kyuhyun’s done singing Ryeowook’s favorite lullaby to him, he looks down and sees the boy fast asleep. He smiles sadly, and brings a hand down to caress Ryeowook’s cheekbones gently and slowly. He grabs a part of his blanket and places it over Ryeowook and tucks him in a little.

“Goodnight, my love…” Kyuhyun whispers quietly to the man sleeping beside him.

He turns his attention back to his laptop and reopens the folder he closed earlier when Ryeowook came into his room. Once everything in the folder finishes loading, he takes time to look at the pictures all over again. They were photos which contains him and Ryeowook. There was one where they were holding hands and were looking into each other’s eyes. Their eyes showed so much love for the other it hurt Kyuhyun. I miss us…

He looks at a few more before looking down at Ryeowook again. He slowly and carefully bends down to place a small kiss on Ryeowook’s forehead.

“I’m still waiting, Wookie.” He murmurs.

aww, isn't the ending sweet? *squeals* i had so much fun writing it~ kyuwook is awesome! no yebum action in here really, but we did get to see some sj action, yes? comments<3 i'll try to update as soon as i can! (: btw, if you guys have never heard Navi's song "Heart Damage", you should! it's an awesome song. the lyrics are also so meaningful and strong. a lot of inspiration. ^^
cute ryeowook

[Fanfic] Insomnia; Chapter 9

Title: Insomnia
Chapter: 09/??
Past Chapters: 01 | 02 | 03 | 04 | 05 | 06 | 07 | 08
Pairings: KyuWook, YeWook, KiSung (later on), etc. (other minor pairings).
Rating: PG-13
Genre: Angst, Romance
Summary: Kyuhyun and Ryeowook were a happy and lovely couple until Ryeowook fell into a coma. He wakes up and doesn't remember a thing about Super Junior. Yesung has been known to have a crush on Ryeowook. He's overjoyed, yet broken inside to know Ryeowook has no more memories of them. He takes this time to go on ahead and convince Ryeowook that they were lovers. Problems arise in Super Junior thanks to Yesung's doings. Kyuhyun can only do so little to help Ryeowook try and remember, but he knows it's almost impossible. Ryeowook knows Yesung's his "boyfriend", but he doesn't understand why he doesn't feel any love growing towards the man even when he does so much for him. Will he ever regain his memories and realize that Kyuhyun's really his love?
Author's Note: AHH!!! My readers, I have news! You guys are allowed to kill me now for not having been updating for a week or two now? >.< I'm so sorry! I've been super busy and very tired! Dance and Volleyball practice sure takes up so much of my time! But tadah!!! Don't worry! I am still continuing! Never think that I've stopped this! Never ever! (: But whoo, I'm finally back with another chapter! Chapter nine! Woohoo! *cheer happily* It's very long? Nearly seven pages in word. xD So enjoy it and be happy, okay? Don't kill me! And I'm sorry if it takes awhile for me to update again cause school starts next week for me. T_________T

Kyuhyun was wandering around the hallways of the SM building with nothing to do, until Kibum spotted him. What’s he doing walking around? He secretly followed the magnae for awhile. After following the male for a few minutes he decided it was time to have a talk with him.

“Kyuhyun!” He called out to him.

Kyuhyun stopped when he heard his name being called. He turned around to look.

“Hyung?” Kyuhyun said in more of a question.

“What are you doing? Shouldn’t you be off doing something better than walking around?” Kibum asked.

Kyuhyun shook his head. “I’m just bored. Eunhyuk and Shindong are busy with Ryeowook.” He mentioned.

“Teaching him the dances?” Kibum let out a small laugh at his imagination of Ryeowook being clumsy while he danced.

“It’s not funny, hyung! Ryeowook dances just fine!” Kyuhyun pouted in protest at Kibum’s laughter.

“Sorry, Kyuhyun. Care to have a drink with me?” Kibum suggested.

“Sure, why not?” Kyuhyun agreed.


Kyuhyun and Kibum sat across from one another in the small coffee shop not far from their dormitory. Before going to the coffee shop, they went home to disguise themselves to keep from getting recognized by fans or paparazzi.

“Why’d you have to make me wear this wig and these ‘Harry Potter’ sunglasses?” Kibum groaned.

Kyuhyun laughed. “Hey, you were the one that was afraid of being caught.” He said quietly. Kibum glared at him. “Be glad I didn’t make you dress up in a girl wig and girl clothes.”

Kibum rolled his eyes and the waitress came to their table with their orders. She placed them in front of them neatly on the table.

“Please enjoy your refreshments and if there’s anything else you’ll like to order just call us over.” The young lady smiled before bowing and leaving to serve others.

“She’s cute,” Kyuhyun said, staring after her.

Kibum nodded in agreement. “She is, but too bad we’re gay.”

“Only you are,” Kyuhyun teased.

“Shut up. Don’t forget you made me put this on!” Kibum said angrily.

“Haha! Okay, so what do you want to talk about?” Kyuhyun said in a serious tone after his laugh.

“About Ryeowook and Yesung.” Kibum replied after taking a sip of his cappuccino.

Kyuhyun frowned. What was there to talk about? He knows Kibum likes Yesung hyung, but why does he want to talk about this from all the other things they could talk about? He sighed.

“What about them?” Kyuhyun had the guts to ask.

“Kyuhyun! You know how painful it is to watch them be together! You love him, don’t you? Don’t you remember what I told you? You have to fight back if you want him back!”

Kyuhyun looked at his hyung with sad eyes. You’re right, Kibum. But it’s hard when he acts like we’ve never known each other before.

“I know, hyung. I know. But it’s not that easy! I’ve tried and I still am giving shots at it. Every night, I talk to him. He has trouble sleeping at night without me, but he can’t remember anything that leads to his insomnia state!” Kyuhyun said drastically.

“Tell him then.” Kibum retorted.

“No!” Kyuhyun yelled, attracting some attention.

“Why not?” Kibum whispered, looking around at the people.

“Because it’d screw everything up, Kibum!” He whispered back.

“You’re right.” Kibum gave in. “Then what do we do? Kyuhyun you have to get him to remember you. If you don’t… then… then…”

“Then you’ll never get to be with Yesung?” Kyuhyun suggested.

“…Yes. You know how much I love him.”

“And you know how much he loves Ryeowook.”

Kibum nodded. “But... you love him too, a lot.” Tears brimming his eyes.

“I do, hyung. But I can’t do much with Yesung around and you know that? You see how much he glues himself to hyung.” Kyuhyun smiles sadly.

“But you can take him places and do things you did with him before. Yesung will have to let you or else Ryeowook will sense something is wrong between the both of you.” Kibum said softly.

“…” Kyuhyun only stared down at his cup of tea.

“Kyuhyun, you have to do something you guys did in the past. You can’t just keep telling him, you have to do it. Of course if you guys have had sexual intercourse, that’s a bit out of proportion,” Kibum chuckles at his last sentence.

“Hyung!~” Kyuhyun whines. “You know very well that we haven’t done such things! That’s just… disgusting! We were never ready to sleep with one another in that way!” He protested.

“Wow, I’d have Yesung in a heartbeat.” Kibum joked.

“Eww! I so did not need to know that.” Kyuhyun felt like puking.

Kibum giggled. “Anyways, do something with him, Kyuhyun. Take him somewhere and try triggering old memories. Doing that should help, Kyuhyun.” Kibum advised. “Promise me you’ll try,” he stuck a finger.

Kyuhyun sighed. “I promise.” And they both did a pinky swear.


Kyuhyun sat on his bed thinking of where he should take Ryeowook. Ryeowook was still at practice with Shindong and Eunhyuk. Maybe he should take him out to eat? He wondered if his hyung had eaten yet. He must be so tired and hungry. Kyuhyun frowned at the thought of Ryeowook starving and exhausted. Well if Ryeowook is exhausted he wasn’t sure if he wanted to take Ryeowook out anywhere. He’d rather have his hyung rest, but maybe taking him to his favorite restaurant would work. A small eat out with just the two of them.

Kyuhyun grinned to himself. Yes, that would do. He sat up and looked at the clock hanging on the wall across from him. It was now 5:00pm, he could go pick Ryeowook up and bring him back over here to the dorm, and get him showered and changed. It’d be just like the last time when he and Wook went together alone. Them sitting across from each other and talking about how hard the dances for ‘SORRY, SORRY’ and ‘It’s You’ were. This was the perfect time. Yes, he now had a plan.


Kyuhyun walked into the practice room. ‘It’s You’ was busting out of the stereo. Kyuhyun sat by where the three boys had put their things and watched as Eunhyuk and Shindong taught the eternal magnae. They were sweaty, especially Ryeowook. None of them noticed Kyuhyun had even slipped into the room. He couldn’t suppress a laugh when he saw Ryeowook trip Eunhyuk on accident though. The other three turned their heads to where the laugh was coming from and was surprised to see Kyuhyun on the other side of the room.

“Kyuhyun, hey!” Shindong grinned goofily.

Kyuhyun waved. “Hey hyungs!” He said in a fit of giggles.

“What brings you here?” Eunhyuk asked.

“I was just wondering if you guys were done because if you were I wanted to take Ryeowook out to get some food!” Kyuhyun beamed.

“What about me?” Shindong pouted, “I’m hungry too!”

“Shush,” Eunhyuk elbowed the other dancer in the stomach, “We have food at home!”

“But!” Shindong whined.

“No,” Eunhyuk turned Shindong away from Ryeowook, “it’s kind of like a date to resurface memories! Can’t you tell?!”

Shindong’s mouth formed an ‘o’ shape and he nodded. Ryeowook looked from Shindong and Eunhyuk to Kyuhyun. He felt suspicious of Shindong and Eunhyuk. What are they talking about? He couldn’t help but wonder why Kyuhyun was so happy. It was just dinner, so what’s so exciting about that? He guessed he’d just have to wait and see.

“So,” Kyuhyun raised an eyebrow, “Is he good to go?” The two dancers turned around and nodded with gigantic grins. Kyuhyun laughed. “Alright then, let’s get you home and dressed!”

He grabbed Ryeowook’s hand and pulled him out of the practice room. Ryeowook’s heartbeat increased rapidly at the touch of their hands. He wanted to pull his hand away, but for some reason, he kind of liked it.


“Where are you going?” Yesung asked, as he watched Ryeowook get dressed.

Ryeowook grinned, showing his excitement. He pulled his shirt over his head and took a seat next to Yesung on the bed.

“Kyuhyun’s taking me out to dinner!”

“Kyuhyun?” Yesung frowned.

Ryeowook caught it right away. He pouted and wrapped his arms around Yesung’s waist, and snuggled his head under Yesung’s chin comfortably.

“Yes, is something wrong with that?” Ryeowook said worriedly.

Yesung smiled a bit and shook his head. “No, nothing is wrong. Go and enjoy yourself, okay?” And make sure you don’t do anything too foolish. He wanted to say, but didn’t.

“Thanks,” he beamed before kissing Yesung on the cheek and running out of the room to meet up with Kyuhyun downstairs.

Yesung sighed and shook his head.


(You’ll notice a change in my tense here! I’m testing out if I write better in present tense!)

The waitress places their orders in front of them and Ryeowook grins happily at the sight of food because boy was he hungry. He looks up at Kyuhyun and sees he has a soft smile gracing his lips. He takes one more glance around the unfamiliar, yet almost familiar restaurant, and it sparks up something inside his mind. He’s hearing voices inside his head, but they aren’t clear enough for him to recognize. He can’t tell, but he’s just staring down at his food. Kyuhyun catches this. There’s a slight frown on Ryeowook’s face and he wonders if the boy is alright.

“Ryeowook… are you okay?” Kyuhyun asks with worry embedded into his voice.

His voice lures Ryeowook out of the flashback which was too blurry for him to actually remember. He shakes his head and right away the vision disappears from his mind. He takes awhile to adjust to what exactly just happened and what was happening now. He finally looks up at Kyuhyun and smiles.

“I’m okay. I just had a small vision,” he nods, “Have I been here before? This place, it was in my vision.”

“Yes, you’ve been here numerous times with us. This is one of your favorite restaurants nearby!” Kyuhyun says. It’s working! Kyuhyun exclaims in his mind.

“Oh really? Hmm, that’s probably why this place seems somewhat familiar to me!” Ryeowook exclaims with joy.

“Most likely, but will you just focus on eating now please? The food is getting cold, Ryeowook.” The magnae reminds.

“Oh yes!” Ryeowook automatically agrees.

And so they both begin eating the food laid out nicely in front of them. Sometime while they were eating, Kyuhyun decides to bring up the subject of Ryeowook’s dance lessons with Eunhyuk and Shindong to see if anything else would trigger.

“So, how did dancing go with Eunhyuk and Shindong?”

Ryeowook almost chokes on his water he just swallowed down. He takes on a couple of coughs and clears his throat before answering Kyuhyun.

“Don’t even ask! It was hard like heck! ‘SORRY, SORRY’ almost killed me!” Ryeowook says in disbelief. “I was not expecting the dance to be so hard! I knew it was going to be a challenge, but not like that,” his eyes slightly wide.

“Haha! It is really hard, isn’t it?”

“Mhm, was it hard for you, too?”

“You know, I’m not much of a great dancer too. You and I are both at the same level with dancing.” Kyuhyun laughs.

“Really…?” Ryeowook says with much disbelief.

“You haven’t even seen me dance! Just wait till you do, I’ll suck big time! Well, if I don’t know the routine, then yeah, I suck big time then.” Kyuhyun defends himself before Ryeowook could add more.

“Well, I have! Eeteuk has shown me many of our performances, and from what I see you dance better than I do!”

“Yeah right.” and Kyuhyun scoffs. “But don’t worry, ‘SORRY, SORRY’ is really an easy dance once you know it.”

“Yes, most likely because you know it.” Ryeowook giggles.

“I guess, but anyway how was ‘It’s You’?” Kyuhyun asks with much curiosity.

“Ugh! It was a little easier than ‘SORRY, SORRY’, but it was still really hard!” Ryeowook whines with a big, cute pout.

“You’ll get better, don’t worry!” Kyuhyun assures, before he continues to pick at his food.

“Yeah…” Ryeowook smiles.


Kibum wonders if he should knock on Yesung’s door and go in to have a talk with him. He brings up his hand and is about to knock, when he decides not to. He turns around to walk back to his shared bedroom, but then Yesung’s door opens without him realizing it.

“Kibum?” Yesung calls his name out in uncertainty. “Did you need something?”

Kibum turns around, a bit flustered now. He manages a shaky smile and lets out a nervous laugh. He’s not sure of what to say now, because of the awkward situation they were in now.

“Umm… I just… wanted to talk to you, hyung.” Kibum said in a soft voice.

“Oh… come in?” Yesung smiles a little.

Things between him and Yesung are still a bit weird, but he was going to try and make things right tonight. Try to… at least.

“Sure?” Kibum replies.

Yesung steps back into his room and gives space for Kibum to come in. Kibum heads to sit on Yesung’s bed and once his hyung closes the door; he comes and sits beside him.

“So… what do you want to talk about?” Yesung asks a bit hesitantly.

Kibum stays quiet for a few seconds as he gathers what to say in his mind. Yesung waits patiently.

“I just... when I found out… I’m–”

“It’s okay Kibum. You don’t need to be sorry, it’s what I–”

“I’m not sorry about the things I said to you that day, or how I reacted. I wasn’t here to apologize, hyung.” Kibum retorts a bit too harshly. Crap, did I really just say I wasn’t sorry?

Yesung looks a bit taken back, but he hides it the best he can. This is what was to be expected, right? Yesung doesn’t say anything for awhile and only stares down at his hands, feeling only a little guilty. I’m only making things worse, but I’m really not sorry. Kibum realizes, and he takes this as his cue to continue.

“I know I probably had hurt you with those words and stuff, but I’m not sorry hyung. I thought I came here to apologize, and I was going to! I was wishing to make things all better with you and I!” Kibum says out loud. Tears beginning to brim in his eyes, “I was expecting that after this, I could probably accept you and Ryewoook.” He lies.

He knows he could never accept it in his heart, never. Even if he wanted to, it was almost impossible. He wants to help Ryeowook remember. He wants to help Kyuhyun regain his happiness. He wanted to be happy himself.

“But… but I don’t think I ever can. No matter how much I want to apologize, it hurts too much for me and I hate that! Hyung I hate it! Why did you have to go and do something so stupid?! Do something that could make the whole world hate you?!” Kibum cries, his tears flowing down his cheeks.

Yesung finally looks up at him. He’s frowning and he’s feeling guiltier. He wants to pull the young boy to him and hug him, and apologize, but at the same time he doesn’t know what to do.

“K-Kibum…” Yesung murmurs.

“Don’t speak.” Kibum says in a helpless plea. “I’m going to say this now and only now, while I have the courage to, so you better listen very carefully to me.” He says with much seriousness.

Yesung nods, while whispering a quiet “okay”.

“I love you. I love you more than anything in the world, hyung. I don’t know why, but I just do. Maybe it’s a natural thing in love, but I really don’t know. It hurts knowing that you took the shortcut to have Ryeowook be yours when he already had Kyuhyun.”

Kibum looks away from him and fights against his tears. Yesung is confused.

“Kibum…?” Yesung starts. “I’m with Ryeo–”

“I hate you, Yesung! I hate you so much, but why do I love you?! You’ve done this and I still want to be with you! But it’ll never work…” Kibum mutters his last sentence weakly. “It never will, since you’ve gotten Ryeowook in your arms now. I’m hoping you’ll be happy with him while the time you have with him.” Kibum smiles a bitter one, before getting up and running out of the room.

Yesung stays sitting on his bed in pure shock. He was unsure of what to think. Kibum… in love with… me?

okay~ soooo hehehehe. kibummie confessed! isn't that awesome? but it happened so dramatically, didn't it? D: oh well, at least you got some yebum action, yes? a few of you guys have been waiting for yebum to happen, so here they are! (: and omg, wook remembers something~ teehee! awesome isn't it? xD comments<3 i'll try to update as soon as i can. oh, and would you guys like it better if i changed my writing to present tense? i'm so tired... @________@